Scientists study if the ancient wisdom of Forgiveness can improve sleep. Not the “F” word you were expecting? Forget about that word – this F word is more important for your health.
Modern-day fellowship programs recognize Forgiveness for it’s restorative power and pathway to peace. Therapy models wrestle with its place in the overall schema of past harms done and the client’s empowerment journey. Perhaps some harms done exceded the luxury of Forgiveness? Christianity certainly embraces this practice: “Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” The ultimate redeemer forgave his persecutors while on the cross.
I challenge you to consider forgiving yourself for any misgivings and regrets in some symbolic and meaningful way. Of course, do what you can to mend any broken fences, but then bring the rest to a close with a commitment to avoid the same errors in the future.
As for the forgiveness of others – when is it okay to let go of the toxicity? Can you do it safely without harm or without undue malice? Perhaps it is done only in your prayers, sincerely and compassionately?
At the very least you can get a better night’s sleep. Remember I mentioned scientists? The Washington Post Wellness section reports scientists demonstrated forgiving others as well as yourself can be beneficial for your sleep:
There is even an “International Forgiveness Institute” with a purported 20 step forgiveness model! (https://internationalforgiveness.com/about-us.htm).
I don’t think you need 20 steps! Many will tell you they can show you a way to practice forgiveness and maintain peaceful living in only 12 steps with plenty of good sleep. There are so many resources and references to the art of forgiveness. It is not something to do lightly nor to fear – if handled with the care that you deserve.
If not an enlarged future – perhaps just a good night’s sleep!
Take the Challenge!
What do we owe our maker? And even if we were in the position to pay – how would we pay God who needs nothing and is everything? We simply cannot begin to make any repatriation that has any impactful influence on an infinite being.
Still, must of us strive to live a principled life informed by spiritual, religious, and social mores that intrinsically have, in my opinion, an urgency to reflect the imprint of God that exists within our souls. The more distorted the projection we receive – the more difficulties we encounter living a holy life – the more susceptible we are to the most significant human suffering of the existential phenomenon – the alienation of the true self from one’s creator.
How do we keep the projection of our purpose clear? Where do we find the balance between personal prayer, religiosity (the standard-bearer of scripture and the sacramental life), and action in daily life?
There is no balance that we can dictate by our own desire or self-directed vision of how best our time is to be spent on doing God’s work. Monastic life, reading scripture, dissecting the lives of the Saints, and other holiness seekers provide us some reference points.
My absence from posting is not indicative of the lack of meaningful spiritual substance being a reality in my life or (hopefully) sloth on my part. Admittedly it takes time to let ideas into form, test form against spiritual discernment, and then unleash a post capturing the theological and the spiritual experience that has consumed my heart and mind.
This entry was started some time ago and was swallowed up into the abyss of personal business with my assigned vocations in life – family, fellowship, work, and the sometimes arduous task of just managing my own routines. Are our actions not the vehicle of our spiritual intentions? Spirituality and the presence of God are not absent in these activities, and is I pray the core driver of my decisions.
Yet, the absence of significant time with contemplative reading and thought drains me and eventually distorts my actions and activities into stressful chores and burdens rather than gifts of my calling and existence. Failures, anxieties, regrets, and even successes become my Albatros around my neck – stalking me from a distance in the foggy clouds of uncertainty.
As I become immersed in temporal human priorities, I become engulfed in “deep sadness and despair.” There is too much misery and despair for my feeble hands to help, for my limited words to reach, for my voice to soothe or reassure. Alas, that is not even addressing my own selfish desires for comfort, prestige, power, security, pride, laughter, peace, and spiritual consolation – to keep these graces I now believe I have or secretly think I am owed them shortly.
I could read, pray, and write the rest of my days in solitude and total devotion, and I would still be seriously inadequate with the mission of seeking to live a sanctified and holy life. I could throw away my books, my papers, my pens, and my prayer life and turn purely to helping others without regard for myself day in and day out, and again, I would be found wanting against the highest measure to truly live a sanctified life.
The Rhyme of the Ancient Mariner attempts to express a harrowing voyage and provides us with the symbol of the Albatross around our necks. Some define it as original sin -others as our shortcomings today. Are they any different or just a continuity of the culmination of human evolution being present and codified in where we are now – with all the good and evil saddled on our shared collective consciousness?
I can go awhile doing man’s work, but without prayer and contemplation, I can feel the ship veering into uncharted waters and the fog rolling in no matter how hard I try to manage the seas and the winds, the sailors and the ship.
Where is the balance of my cooperation with God’s intentions and my human endeavors that require my attention? Yes, they are one and the same in real unity of the whole – but how many of us can live that unity in every thought, every action, every moment of our lives? No one can achieve this ideal.
With this type of discipline and courage, we would have no fears or regrets. We also might find our lives short-lived or at the very least, very lonely in this secular world. Martyrs of this world, both past and present, where did you find your wisdom and courage? Was it by accident, coincidence, foolishness, or divine inspiration? Are we the masters of our own fate, captain of our souls?
Finding the time to still our lives and be present with God may show us our shortcomings and our courageousness. It may also require sitting with pain and sorrow greater than we can imagine. Without this time, I will find the pain and sorrow through other means on my own through influences provided by other less worthy guides.
I am tired. Pray for me. I have no “ask” or specific prayer to request – only that God’s will find us and provide us the strength, wisdom, and will to play our part.
Sitting on the beach reading a work of fiction a protagonist ponders with resentment, “Did his work have meaning or was it merely a means to survive? There was nothing shameful about trying to survive–it was the occupation of the majority. However, was it enough to live….and not even be sustained by a sense of purpose?”
Nesterov is with the military police in Communist Russia and is being promoted by his wife, an annoying visitor who is on the outs with establishment, and an underlying sense that he must do the right thing, even if it means death. There is no mention of God here, but you can feel the pull of Nesterov struggling to act in a transcendent manner.
We do not often if ever get faced with literal life and death choices to stand up for our principles. However, we are faced daily with the human striving for economic prosperity or safety, good social standing, and access to resources we deem valuable. Are we willing to compromise our principles or faith for the promotion of our self-centered desires?
Are we silent when we see injustice? Do we benefit from the misfortune of others? Are we willing to face our fears and perhaps even be courageous? Can we accept loss and sacrifice?
I imagine must of us see ourselves as well-meaning people, perhaps even worthy of being a protagonist archetype of good with just a little embellishment and grandiosity from an author with creative imagination. Digging a little deeper we could also round out our lives with our deep inner struggles with good, evil, and situational adversities that shaped our characters.
But is the mold done and the dye cast? Or are we still a work in progress, seeking perfection while fulfilling a transcendent purpose that is mostly beyond our intellectual and spiritual grasp?
It is easy for me to say survival is not enough – harder to practice it with perfect fidelity. Truth is I cannot achieve perfection here as I am chained to my human desires, instincts, and mortal flesh.
Only in prayer and faith do I stand a chance of spiritual alignment with a greater metaphysical truth.
It does not matter what our occupation is or activity at the moment, every action and thought is meaningful and connected to the whole.
Where do you find your meaning in life?
Angry with God today?
Is anger understating your feelings towards God? Or if not today have you ever been enraged, hateful, irate, indignant, or resentful? Perhaps you have been accusatorial of God’s benign presence in the midst of suffering or even assign him direct responsibility for evil or pain that has afflicted you?
Denying God today?
Or you are by now beyond God, you have no anger or hatred with God, for you have come to deny the existence of any deity at all. If you have reached this point, then yes, God is Dead to you. You are not alone in your position:
“”According to the latest international survey data, as reported by Ariela Keysar and Juhem Navarro-Rivera in the recently published Oxford Handbook of Atheism, there are approximately 450-500 million non-believers in God worldwide, which amounts to about 7% of the global adult population. And according to the Pew Research Center, if we broaden the category to include all non-religious people in general — those unaffiliated adults who do not identify with any religion — we’re talking 1.1 billion people, which equals about 16.5% of the global adult population. As such, “non-religious” is actually the third largest “religion” in the world, coming only behind Christianity (in first place) and Islam (in second). Thus, there are more secular men and women on planet earth — many of whom are atheists and agnostics — than there are Hindus, Buddhists, Mormons, Sikhs, Jains, or Jews.”
The Decision to abandon Faith
If you are among the people who have never had a dark night of questioning God’s existence, count yourself as truly blessed. Your experience is not the norm. Understanding this will prepare you for helping those unfortunates who do not hold your gift of grace and cross your path in a state of disbelief.
For the rest of us mortals who have had experiences with great anger or outright disbelief, I believe the root of our malevolent state of being to be the conundrum of pervasive suffering and evil. And it sometimes leads to people quietly leaving the faith or leaving with thunder and wrath. What to we really offer people who suffer the unjust misery and suffering? Do we condemn their lack of faith? Their lack of trust in God? What decisions they have made or actions they failed to take to avoid such suffering and misery?
What have we done?
When you have experienced suffering, visible for all to see or hidden from public view, who did you turn to for help? Did you turn to God and find silence? Perhaps you turned to friends in times of great strife? Did your friends offer you platitudes or condolences? How many times have you heard or even offered yourself these traditional phrases:
- “I will pray for you and your family”
- “I am so sorry for your loss”
- “He was so young. God must have called him home”
- “You will get over this in time, God is at your side, have faith”
- “God heals all, you have to have faith”
- “No one truly knows God’s plans”
Hit with deep personal pain or witnessing unexplainable tragedy – these responses from people of faith are simply insufficient unless accompanied by other more tangible actions. Often they are not accompanied by more than a passing smile and perhaps a sympathy card. These responses, despite being well-meaning and genuine, come off as shallow and incongruous with the situation. This is not enough.
The mass shootings in the United States highlight the issue. People don’t want prayers – they want action. Family members with a loved one in the throws of addiction don’t want prayers, they want help and recovery for their loved one. People who have lost a child to evil don’t want condolences, they want their child back.
If not you personally, the global suffering we witness every day is so overwhelming that we become numb to human tragedy. We are so often powerless to effect change in the constant stream of misery that we witness everyday – if not suffered personally.
Are we not secretly at times separated from the suffering person and cognitively distancing ourselves mentally for our own sanity – hoping we cannot or will not suffer the same fate? If not would we not be in a perpetual state of immense grieving and uncontrollable sobbing?
Our approach to coping with suffering, evil, and even death itself is the greatest “cleaver” of faith that our society faces today. We have attempted to white wash life in an illusion of control of our destinies. We have come to expect a life where we are entitled to certain possessions, status, health, and other temporal acquisitions if only we work for it and others are not irrationally cooperating!
We are unprepared for the crushing blows of major disappointments, grave injustices, personal failure, violence, and other soul shattering experiences. And when they strike us our spiritual foundation is often found wanting and unable to sustain us through the storm – we blame God or deny him. Or we blame others and deny them.
We mistakenly believe if we do everything right, if our government does its job, if our doctors are practicing good medicine, if all the “others” would only do their part – we would be safe from tragedy. And yet we see everyday innocent people swept up in tragedy. How do we maintain the illusion of suffering that it only comes to “others” until it comes for us?
We should be yelling from the roof tops and in the streets about the injustices we see daily. We should be consoling the poor and the suffering not with platitudes and prayers but with blood, sweat, and tears. We can pray too – but let that be quietly and in private for our strength and perseverance in the midst of immense suffering. We cannot be blind to suffering. We cannot be numb to evil actions. We cannot ignore our neighbors near or far. We should be listening and hearing voices of disbelief and anger towards God and embracing these voices with understanding and love. We can only do that genuinely if we do so prepared and with spiritual grounding – spiritual love that transcends the human experience.
This denial of suffering (and our mortality) coupled with a weak a spiritual foundation leaves us vulnerable alienation from fellow man and God. We are unprepared for genuine response to the suffering of others or for when it visits us uninvited.
God is not dead when suffering strikes us – our spiritual immaturity has left us unable to reach out to God or hear his whispers. We are dependent on temporal things and human affections before God. When these human possession are threatened we become unmoored. We are unable to cope with the slightest inconveniences, never mind great misery and suffering.
Analyze your own Suffering?
I know a little about suffering – though not enough to claim martyrdom. My family was engulfed by alcoholism. My parents, whose hearts and souls were contradictorily of pure intention and love, were compromised by their disease progression, domestic violence, the onset of poverty, and eventually premature death for my father. Myself, and my six older siblings took in more than our share of hidden and not so hidden emotional and spiritual bruises. Two of us would go to our deaths in a state of great suffering. Our suffering was both visible and invisible. We were Catholic and all attended Catholic School. The church, nor our community, had answers for the particular flavor of suffering that afflicted my family. My accounts of shame, pride, fear, failure, success, and struggle to cope with the meaning of life and the presence of God exceeds this post. I however knew God from an early age and my relationship with God and the Catholic Church was complicated from the beginning.
Suffice it to say I had good reason to doubt in a merciful and loving God. And yet after several rounds of a contentious relationship with God – I am in the camp of God is alive and well and it is our souls that are asleep and dead to God. My suffering bought me to places that I would rather not go. At the same time, it liberated me from certain preconceived notions about myself and about humanity. My suffering, and witnessing suffering in others, has bought me closer to God and closer to mankind. That is where I am today. How did I get here back with the God that I once declared he was dead?
First, let me give you the cliché answer that Catholics will tell you – by God’s grace. I say this as I by myself have created nothing. Any revelation or spiritual consolation that sustains me is not of my own making. There have been countless books, several priest consults, spiritual books, spiritual retreats, and many hours of contemplation that have restored my faith. Beyond that there were everyday people that beamed with God’s grace that had something I once thought was naivety but later I came to understand was hard earned wisdom. And there were periods of turning my back on God, of self-destruction and self-absorption that in my case, were necessary to help me expand my horizons.
Rediscovering God has not eliminated suffering for me. Rediscovering God has transformed suffering into something meaningful beyond comprehension. I almost feel like my cross to carry is insignificant relative to others (and it is) and yet feel like it is too much for me. The truth is I am not able to manage pain and suffering with any dignity unless I do so through God. Some greater than me in spirit pray for God to give them more suffering if it is his will. I can barely manage “God’s will, not mine, be done” before my mind’s eye is fixed on my next human affection (or affliction!).
I have been discussing suffering that is undeserved (in my view) and unjust. Unexplainable suffering. There is another kind of suffering. Some people are angry as they have come to recognize their lives are built on fraudulent temporal things like power, greed, selfishness, lust, and other human desires that at the end of the day leave them empty and miserable. There is simply not enough human pleasure to satiate the human spirit or feed our narcissistic self-importance when we are living contrary to the laws of God.
Rediscovering God transforms love as well as suffering. I mentioned people who are suffering require “tangible actions.” Expression of selfless love to a person who is suffering can take many forms. It is given without expectation, carefully, and thoughtfully. It is devoid of any expectation of returns. It just is living to do the next right thing. It knows no boundaries. Receiving love as well is an art of willful gratitude and openness without ownership. We cannot possess it and freeze it in time. It is also limitless and infinite if we respect its true God given essence.
Integrating Love and Suffering:
God is present no matter the temporal reality that we are experiencing at any moment. Our cooperation in the moment with acceptance of what is, intentional spiritual consciousness of how we are called to act in any given moment, persistence and patience while in the throws of darkness, and immense gratitude when experiencing love and joy, are all fluid and one with God’s will. If only I was always on this spiritual high. If we all lived this way no suffering would shake our faith.
Wait a minute – you don’t know what I have been through?
I have known death of loved ones. I have known personal failure. I have known sickness and poor health. I have witnessed many people suffering. And yes I have no idea what you the reader have been through.
I know of your suffering as I know intimately of global suffering all over the world. In my prayers I can be bought to tears by our inhumanity to each other. In contemplation I can become overwhelmed with emptiness and lack of understanding. In moments of confusion and helplessness, I like Job, want answers now.
I believe that a thoughtful and open minded journey exploring one’s faith, one’s suffering, and one’s life long loves or joys can restore and strengthen lost faith. I also believe finding genuine faith that is well discerned will improve us and the people around us.
This three part series on “Is God Dead” was ignited by a new reading of the Book of Job. I have learned that you and I should challenge our faith, ourselves, and those around us when faith is in question or when we or a neighbor is suffering. It is a call to universal arms that we fight suffering, love one another, and embrace spirituality. Mine just happens to be Christianity in form.
God by another name?
The name on the shingle of the church is secondary to the actions of people inside the temple. What we do with love and suffering outside the temple is also testament to the fidelity of the shingle holder’s ability to carry the word of God. Those without a shingle (without a church) are not off the hook either. The 1.1 billion people have a shared social contract with us based on moral evolution as a species that shares many of the values shared by our religious institutions. That being said, I would be remiss and lacking an authentic voice if I did not say find a catholic spiritual advisor, preferably a Jesuit, to explore the faith and your objections to Christianity today, gently and with love.
There is evidence out there that faith is good for your general well-being and happiness. Review the science if you are skeptical. Many “well-being” models of therapy employ techniques that are borrowed from religions with rich spiritual practices and traditions. Mindfulness, Yoga, Tai Chi and many forms of meditation can trace portions of their practices to religion. They can be helpful in and of themselves – but let me say they are also temporal and missing the main ingredient, genuine spirituality and connection to a higher universal meaning. Some orthodox religious believers see these practices as dangerous and even heretical in nature. I do not prescribe to this assertion but can see their point that practices aimed solely at self-soothing, avoiding pain and discomfort, and seeking personal peace can be misapplication of effort and ultimately spiritually limiting.
How can I return to God?
I firmly believe you cannot “crowd source” faith. It is helpful to have company of faithful people – but ultimately faith is an individual responsibility. Without individual responsibility religious institutions and your faith run the risk of becoming human created cults operating on superficial clichés of dead letters quoted in ancient text. The institutions and their believers can become enveloped in the very evils that faith preaches against. My church as well as every religious institution has to reconcile this threat everyday. No one individual or set of individuals owns the faith of any great religion. Study history and you will find grave errors by every religious institution known to mankind executed in God’s name.
This by the way is what I take Nietzsche meant when he said “God is Dead.” Individuals ceded personal responsibility for their faith to rigid religious institutions and became docile in their beliefs. Ironically his philosophy was used by Nazi Germany to let a charismatic leader lead a docile people into being partners in one of the greatest evils of all time.
Love your neighbor as yourself and help alleviate suffering whenever you see it. Simple. As for God’s role and responsibility, pre and post Christ, I believe it is still up to us to live up to his expectations, not the other way around.
The Longer Path:
I was struggling to bring this three part series to a close. I was keenly aware that the pain and suffering that people are experiencing cannot be relieved by my writing alone. I am deeply saddened by our collective isolation and alienation from God. I am aware that as long as I am mortal my search for proximity to God and spiritual transcendence will never be fulfilled.
Suffering remains a part of our experience – both in human misery and in spiritual distance from our creator.
I went to retire last night and was provided closure to this post by para phrasing Pope Francis:
“….we must love God and our neighbor – and this is not comfortable. It is demanding, and requires us to strive, which means having a decisive and persevering will to live according to the Gospel.”
“the Lord will not recognize us on account of our titles, but only on account of a humble life, a good life, a life of faith that results in works.”
“Spending our lives for the good of our brothers and sisters for Christians means that we are called to restore a true communion with Jesus, praying, going to Church, approaching the Sacraments and nourishing ourselves on His Word. This maintains us in faith, nourishes our hope, revives charity.”
“In this way with the grace of God, we can and must spend our life for the good of our brothers and sisters, struggling against every form of evil and of injustice.”
I mentioned earlier comforting those who suffer with tangible actions. The sufferer may also be ourselves. Faith is not a passive activity. It is not waiting at a bus stop for the God bus to arrive. It is inside us and all around us to be lived and participated in every moment.
Strive to understand suffering and faith today
Make a e decisive and persevering will to live a holy life today
Restore a true communion with God (through exploration of your faith)
Join the struggle against every form of evil and of injustice
Find time for spiritual contemplation daily to make sure you take full ownership of your faith and your works and that they are truly aligned with your greater purpose here on earth, consciously and actively
May this post find you in a good spiritual place ready to embrace love and suffering with resolve and appropriate intentional living. Thank you for visiting my site today.
As long as man has known God and God has no man both have been disappointed and aggrieved. Before examining if “God is Dead” it maybe helpful to understand that we are not the first individuals or generation to question how a personal and all powerful God could seemingly sit idle as tragedy and evil rains on earth.
Turn to the Book of Job in the Old Testament and read of his plight. An innocent and upstanding man of God crushed by a test of loyalty posed to God by Satan himself. My Christian roots of course lay on a foundation of Jewish tradition. In essence we share the same God – but are torn apart by our lack of knowledge on how to truly live a holy life despite quite strong belief that we hold the most authentic words of God and tradition in our respective religions.
A new translation was published and released last week by Jewish scholar Edward Greenstein. What could be new about a book centuries old and studied and translated by thousands of biblical scholars? You have to buy his book to really grasp the tenuousness of truly understanding the complexity of translated religious text passed down through the centuries, told in different languages, and stored on fragments of paper. Even if were able to ensure the accuracy of every word, comma, and cultural reference – we would still be left with applying the meaning to today’s world.
If anything, Greenstein’s publication of an ancient text and review of old assumptions and definitive meanings celebrates that the living word is truly never beyond exploration and interpretation. The revelation of the text meaning and its application to our moral actions is ever changing despite core elements being beyond malleability. The challenge is knowing the difference. In today’s world we have greatly lost the art of religious and philosophical discourse, that contrary to popular belief, can actually strengthen faith rather than destroy it.
As mentioned in Part I, Nietzsche is famous for his quote God is Dead. I have used him academically to both defend that God is Dead as well as to defend years later that God is alive (and it is religion that needs saving by man). One can see this today as churches seek more lay person involvement, more transparency, and accountability.
The Book of Job presenting an honest and innocent man persecuted by Satan to settle a wager with God. Job enters a conversation with friends and eventually his deity (Eliphaz, Bildad, Zophar, Elihu, and God (referred to in the book as the diety, Eloah, or El as described in Jewish Tradition). Jb’s friends are clinging to salvation theology as Job rallies to hear from God directly. Below is a very thin capture of some ideas exchanged – but a full reading of Job is required to capture Greenstein’s narrative that Job was not a passive recipient of suffering – he was vocal and very much aggrieved at being subject to such suffering. Ho would your friends support you today if you rallied against God? Here is some excerpts to give you a flavor – but far from the dialogue and interchange of reading the material in it’s entirety:
E: “Pray, Listen and Know Yourself”
J: “That Eloah grant what I hope for? That Eloah would comply and crush me! Release his hand and cleave me!”
B: Espouses traditional retribution wisdom – explains J’s suffering has a cause, even if he is not aware of the offenses.
J: “It is all the same. And so I declare: The innocent and the guilty he brings to the same end. While (his) scourge brings death to fools, He laughs at the trials of the spotless.”
“Very few are the days of my lifespan – Look away from me, so I may have a respite. Before I go and do not return, To a land of darkness and deep-shade; A land whose brightness is like pitch-black, Deep-shade and disorder; That shines like pitch-black.”
Z: Can you fathom the depths of Eloah?
J: I am not inferior to you. Do you think I know not that Eloah is greater than I. Do you not know I have learned the same wisdom as you? “He removes language from orators.” He abuses his majestic power. How can we present our grievances? “It is an argument with El I desire.”
E: “Does a sage such windy speech. It will be proven false.”
J: “My spirit has been bruised, my days are on the wane, my grave is ready.” Why does El care?
E: You speak from “The place of one who knows not El.”
J: “I make an outcry – is there no justice.”
Z: There is divine justice. You lack patience and understanding. Where is your humility?
J: Your responses are futile to my situation. I am innocent and blameless and have no recourse.
E: “Your own mouth denounces your crime, As you adopt a devious tongue. Your own mouth condemns you, Not I; Your own lips testify against you.”
J: I seek El always. I tell the truth. I am an honest man. “But east I go, and he is not (there); And west, but I do not discern him. North, in his concealment I do not grasp (him), He cloaks (himself) south, so I do not see (him).
J: “I know you will return me to death, the meeting house of all who lived.”
Reading the book of Job did not necessarily bring me relief that our God is a merciful and just God. It certainly did not “solve” the problem of suffering or “prove” the existence of God. Job’s retorts are cutting with cunning and desperation – yet defiance.
It did however shine on light on the importance of honesty, soul searching, and dialogue with friends, family, and God on the true meaning of life including love and suffering.
How could we look at suffering today without referencing the book of Job?
End of Part II – Is God Dead?
How can I put this succinctly? God, in my time of need you abandoned me. I suffered when I was unable to defend myself in my youth. My voice was taken from me. My youth was stolen. To this day I carry scars of your indifference. As a child of God, I like Job, was blameless for the tragedies and suffering that surrounded me. I need not detail them here for you. You know them in detail. My readers need not know my details as well. They know when you have abandoned them. I am not alone, if people are honest. They had to face your absence when they were most in need of you.
Our priest despite detailed accounts by St. Theresa of Avilla (the Dialogue) laying out their perverse ways – are centuries later no better if not worse than the common thief. The child sexual predator is indeed at the bottom of the hierarchy in any jail – disdained and spit on by convicts and jailors alike. And yet our church has provided a safe harbor for them, equipped with a home, disguises of various bright colors, retreat houses, legal supports, transfers, and access to innocent children. If you are a personal God who uses all that is available to you, how have you not used spiritual warriors and institutions of justice to expose and end this evil harbored within your own church? Surely this was a place for execution of Divine Providence. Were these priest truly acting safely under the stewardship of the devil, reveling in their free will knowing that you would not act?
You prosecute or abandon the holy as well. Our church makes saints of martyrs who died in your name. Where were you when they were they murdered for preaching your message? You left Mother Teresa for decades, dry of spiritual consolation while she fed and served your impoverished and sickly children. And what about those children? Worldwide Genocide, Rape, War, Abortion, Starvation, Diseases, Disasters, Legalized murder, Illness, Disabilities, and crippling Pain crush good people. Is this Diving Providence?
I am not counted among the Holy caste or included in the group of those who perpetuate great evils. I am just an everyday man seeking your presence and striving to do the next right thing moment by moment. Your benign indifference left me scarred and battered. My trust in mankind and you fractured. My trust in myself a shambles. My heart and soul riddled with shame, fear, anger, self-debasement, and sadness. Eventually numbness and survival took precedent. My ways became far from perfect and I made many grave errors along the way. I was no longer blameless like Job, and I was left weak and fragile in the ways of holiness despite yearning for your saving grace. My weakness and fragility only further debilitated my ability to serve you and grow in living a virtuous life. I have gave up on you several times in early life – even having claimed you to be dead to others in the height of my pain. Nietzsche was my God, philosophy my safe haven, and alcohol my friend. While I have ownership today of my personal responsibility in my failures, the landscape of good and evil inheritances is dispersed arbitrarily in this living hell. Is this divine providence?
I do not know how to be a good apologetic for the faith in the face of this world’s unjust and oppressive nature. Sure I could give my subjective experiences and suffering. I could tell numerous stories of my perceptions of when you have answered my prayers or simply knocked me in the head when I was too stubborn to pray. The grace that I perceive you have given me can be seen though as either a) blatant delusion and spiritual narcissism or b) insignificant relative to the immense suffering of others. Where is their help?
Surely a God of your power could provide a way for us to develop spiritual formation without spiritual deprivation and for some, a misery so profound here on earth, that hell is seemingly recreated. Like Job, I demand you reveal yourself. You no longer have credible witnesses on earth. The church has fallen even though its edifices stand tall and its pews collect the wounded still each Sunday. More have left quietly in sadness and disbelief or with great anger and rage. Is this your divine providence?
Priest today are incapable of defending the faith. Their sermons on suffering and salvation are reaching few. Even spiritual direction one on one is lacking substance to explain the state of things – relying on strained salvation theology that is over two thousand years old.
Show us how we are supposed to live a sanctified life amidst the evil and suffering in this world. Where is the evidence of Jesus’s atonement for us, where is the holy spirit guiding mankind?
End of Is God Dead Part I
The Teachings of Meister Eckhart: An Invitation to Experience God in Every Moment
I listened to this book via audible (amazon) authored by James Finley. Now I have to go to the source – 13th-century mystic Meister Eckhart. James’s handling of the mystic’s sermons served a ten-thousand-foot view of contemplative thought that polished some of my jagged edges in my spiritual practices. His writings and thoughts were not free of controversy, making him even more attractive to some seeking controversy rather than spiritual harmony with God.
You need not go to the 13th century to find controversy – I advise against it as most will pay you no mind quoting a 13th-century mystic, which although quite relevant today, is still not considered a doctor of the church. Pope John Paul II did quote this mystic though, and he has many Catholic/Christian believers that are inspired by his writings.
In 1985 the Pope, John Paul II, said:
“Did not Eckhart teach his disciples: ‘All that God asks you most pressingly is to go out of yourself – and let God be God in you’? One could think that, in separating himself from creatures, the mystic leaves his brothers, humanity, behind. The same Eckhart affirms that, on the contrary, the mystic is marvelously present to them on the only level where he can truly reach them, that is in God.”
His works are free on the web, and he has a society following him today. As with all mystics I imagine, there is an issue of transcendence without having ever done the work of knowing any form or grounding of our spiritual direction. There is always a danger of misinterpretation and spiritual unmooring when reading a complicated mystic, from a different century, who has lived a life immersed in prayer, that many of us may never come close to in our practices. I could teach the basic mechanics of chess in about a day and perhaps, if you have natural talent, even provide some complex strategy and tactics that may give you enough confidence to play solo in amateur events. It is doubtful though that you would be able to elevate your game beyond the literal and into intuitive knowledge and mastery at the level of the great masters of the game. Try flying a plane after having flown a kite.
Today, there is a tendency to want to leap right into the deep end of the mystical thought without any firmament to support the great weights one may encounter – or even the ability to be open to spiritual revelation. Worse yet some run off with a misinterpretation and act in truly evil ways under the premise of knowing the true word of God, but in essence, are suffering from ego-driven narcissism of the spiritual variety. James Finley discusses a lectio-divino process of reading his sermons: pray, read one sermon, pray again, read the same sermon again and highlight, pray some more, read commentary, pray more. He did not say exactly this – but it is clear it is not light reading or light prayer that one comes to know Eckhart.
We do not have eternity here in our mortal shells to come to know and act in concert with divine direction. We will, in all likelihood, pass away like those before us in a state of spiritual imperfection. We strive to be one with our creator nonetheless and count on God’s grace and mercy.
The Sad Joyous Truth:
Finally, you have found my blog page; you itinerant idiot. For those of you who have been here before do not pat yourself on the back. In all likelihood, you are much worse off now than when you last visited. Tell me it isn’t so, honestly, can you do that today? I don’t think so.
Catherine has written to me about you. She says you live in such wretchedness, stinking of death, beclouded and darksome for want of light, going about singing and laughing, spending time on vanities, pleasures, and indecency. I did try and defend you and your honor. No sooner had I responded to her a new letter arrived detailing your actions. Oh, how I wish I could rescind my letter. You all are indeed lustful, drunkards, and gluttons, so much so that you make a God of your belly. You cannot pass the hour without being hateful, spiteful, or proud. And despite the unnatural protrusion of your belly, the incessant clutter in your homes, the unyielding thoughts, and desires swirling around in your head and perhaps even your soul, you walk around singing and dancing. I will not detail here what she has said about you, we both know it will only be used as gossip by the others or turn into unnecessary denials or minimizations by you to save a little face, lessen the shame. Don’t be ashamed by my knowledge. Catherine felt it necessary to send me my very own letter. The envelope had excessive stamps covering over to Catherine’s return address on the envelope. No, I don’t know why she still does not use e-mail.
I could not stand her viciousness against you all, and especially the contents of my letter. I visited her. It didn’t go as intended. I knocked on her door, perhaps a little too loudly, and it opened of its own. She calmly said the door was unlocked as she was expecting me. I tell you I was disarmed right there and stupefied.
On my honor, I tried to take up her attack on your honor. She would have none of it. Let them speak for themselves she said, we both know you came here as it is you I have offended. I tell you now that this is not so, I was there for you as well as me. We had it out. Well not really out, I would start in with any number of justifications and excuses and fall into silence by her one or two-word convictions that belaid the truth of this situation. It got so, I would start a sentence, and she would be smiling, and my sentence would crumble mid-way. Eventually, I crumbled in a heap onto her couch. And then she said, okay, now you are ready.
This was an unexpected turn. My self-righteous anger was indeed quelled. Catherine calmly went about her way, describing in detail how all of my body’s senses had become corrupted and utilized for my very own self-fulfillment. My eyes see the world with a possessive intention, my ears listen for opportunity or threat to my self-worth, my touch craves the love of another to fulfill my sense of being loved, and my sense of smell draws me to the kitchen to provide me momentary pleasure that is never satisfied. It was a long afternoon – but I tell you I did not notice the hour arm on the clock spinning towards evening.
It was not all bliss this time spent. My anger welled up at my God as well as at my self in torrents. Why does God provide me so many trials and temptations? Why does not everything come labeled with directions and intentions? Why is this devil that I cannot see at the door of my soul?
I cannot detail all she said, but I am sure she will be willing to meet with you. In a matter of hours, I came to see and feel my imperfections. Despite entering into her house hours before feeling overly confident in my morality and justified in my martyrdom at the injustices her letter incurred on my psyche, I was indeed slipping into an unconscious false sense of self-mastery. I was the master of my ship, so to speak as if I had built the damn boat myself and controlled the winds and the seas. Let the boat rock a little, or the skies turn dark, and I was apt to hurl invectives at the unfairness of it all and my hopeless situation being far worse off than any others on the sea.
Catherine explained to me that through a daily re-orientation, I would come to experience joy through my senses in a way that provided me glimpses of God’s providence for me. She said, “the imperfect soul comes to perfection by fighting these battles, because there he experiences my divine providence, whereas, before this, he only believed in it.” She then listed the perceived injustices and suffering I have experienced in life (death of loved ones, failures, humiliations, desires denied) as well as the good times (successes, family, catastrophic near misses, and other blessings). I came to understand that when I am truly living in a state of piety, humility, and holiness that Joy and Suffering are the same.
I cannot believe I have written these words together: Joy and Suffering are the same. Catherine helped me see there is nothing wrong with “singing and dancing” when it is properly ordered in celebrating God and our human relationships on a spiritual level. And on the suffering, no matter how terrible the tragedy up to and including the loss or imminent death, each instance of suffering is an opportunity to deepen our faith. Catherine took my hand and said if you truly understand the nature of human suffering and divine providence you would pray for more suffering to be put on your plate – and I believed her as I trembled at the idea of carrying more, despite how light my burden is today.
In life, for Christians at least, we are waiting for momentary consolations and ultimate revelation when the time comes to an end of our world as we know it. Catherine says God gives us this great weigh of labor (suffering) lest the virtue of patience grows rusty within us. Impatience, she says, will corrode our soul. How often do I pray “Gods will, not mine, be done” but am secretly hoping God’s will matches my timeline and my outcomes? If he sends me suffering and delay am I open to it in a joyous and spiritual matter as an opportunity to deepen my faith and fulfill providence as only God understands it?
I am in one of those transition points in life where success is not guaranteed (is it ever?) and my anxiety and attachments to what I have today is at odds with the journey that lay ahead. This worry is contrary to truly following God’s direction, praying for discernment, accepting joy and suffering as they may come, and completing the actions and responsibilities that are my charge, in God’s name and not my own, without any ownership of worldly or spiritual experiences being of my design.
Catherine whispered to me that God would purge me of my selfish and disordered love, whether temporal or spiritual and prune me, employing many trials so that I may produce more and better fruit. If I am open to God, I will come to care equally about trial and consolation. I will not be seeking my consolation or fulfillment – but rather to honor, glory, and praise of the God that I seek.
I know some of you have met Catherine, and some of you have not. I am saddened to inform you she will not be home if you visit her in Siena. She did, however, jot down some notes for you not only on Suffering and Providence (pg. 297 to 307) but on the contemplative spiritual life as she experienced it. She called these notes left for you, “The Dialogue.”
If you cannot lay your hands on her notes in Siena, I can refer you to a seller nearby who has taken the time to make many copies of her notes. She apparently has written to others besides me. Oh, and before I go, let me apologize for calling you an idiot, although that was Catherine’s word, I should not have used it against you seven centuries later.
A letter to myself and fellow Stutterers:
Stuttering is a very individualized experience. Its impact on me and fellow stutterers cannot adequately be measured over a lifetime. Nor can it be universalized by causation, severity, age of onset, duration, or best strategies to mitigate the negative effects of our stuttering and movement towards confident communication skills and maximum fluency.
As such, it could be a very lonely and debilitating handicap in life if not handled with care, commitment, and dedication. Despite it feeling this way, stutterers are indeed not alone – 70 million people worldwide are with us. They share our histories of pain, disappointments, shame, fears, and failures. More importantly, they share our transformation stories of healing, hope, strength, perseverance, self-acceptance, and compassion (no matter how we speak), speech therapy skill sets, self-help fellowships, and success stories, large and small.
This piece is on recovery and living with stuttering from my experience. I will not focus on the early years of avoidance, shame, and willful self-defiance to force my way through painful experiences and situations. As fellow stutterers, we know what they are and how devastating they can be. This piece is about finding peace with myself while still working hard to improve my communication skills.
Three pillars of “Know thyself”
Pillar One: I had to come to understand the exact nature of my stutter, its physiological expression, emotional toll, frequency, and most common circumstances of appearance. I had to become aware of secondary features I had adapted for survival like word substitution, avoiding speaking situations, silence, or other speech nuances that infiltrated my speech patterns. After labeling and defining these quirks and consequences of my speech, I had to go one step further before anything else was to be accomplished. Stuttering is not my identity. It is not my essence. I needed to define and believe myself to be worthy of being present in any situation regardless of how I speak. I had to develop a healthy sense of self and who I am. Stuttering may be a small part of that – but it will not and may not be an outsized definition of my identity. A bad speaking event is just that – not a condemnation of me or you as a worthy human being. Finding PWSs (People Who Stutter) is an excellent place to explore and share your healthy identity. Some of us may even need professional mental health counseling, but studies show we will not need professional help any more than the rest of the non-stuttering world. Resource: National Stuttering Association to find PWS like you for fellowship.
Pillar Two: I had to take ownership of stuttering. This Pillar will be very confusing as it consists of two opposing textures in one spiral column, ever evolving. I had to accept my stutter may appear at any given time and that I do and may stutter the rest of my life. This acceptance is not giving up efforts to be a better communicator. It is an acceptance that I do not know the degree or upper limits of my potential to be a great communicator and preferably free of any form of stuttering. Self-acceptance is one texture of the column’s swirl. The second is, yes you have guessed it, am I willing to go to any lengths to improve my communication skills – shy of self-self-flagellation and martyrdom!
Pursuing improved communication skills can be a life long journey that should be enjoyed and celebrated. It is the pursuit of perfection, the same as an athlete or artist pursues their crafts. This involves researching and making commitments to self-improvement to learn skills to improve speech with an SLP Speech-Language Pathologist) and perhaps other self-improvement strategies (ancillary self-care strategies that improve overall health and reduce anxiety and stress). What lengths am I willing to go to in my effort to address speech dysfluencies. I cannot count the times I have said to myself if only I did not stutter I would or could or should have done this or that activity or goal. I hate to say it, but in hindsight most of the time it was a cop out – not all the time as sometimes it was prudent to not put my stutter on display.
Pillar Three: Having reviewed the first two pillars we have a sense of our identifies as a valued human being, a keen of understanding of stuttering and its impact in our life, and what if anything we are willing to do about it. Pillar three is about our character. Do you have the courage to commit to action and persevere in your actions, including a healthy dose of humility as it will involve asking and using others for help? This may not just be finding an SLP. It may be finding a self-help group or asking family members or friends to be of help for you to practice specific speech goals.
Perhaps contact knowledgeable people to find a stuttering intensive program and immerse yourself in foundational skills related to your speech patterns and vocal apparatus. It may involve significant monies dependent on your treatment targets. Improving speech is about identifying barriers – large and small, and removing them one by one to obtain your goal. Note when I say it is about character – it is not about successfully being free of stuttering – it is about pursuing improving our communication skills to our fullest potential by taking actions steps, by trial and error, and keeping what works and moving on, ever growing and contributing to the art of actualizing our fullest communication potential in every circumstance. You get to be the hero in your own story no matter the result as our effort will stand tall and our identities intact.
Hard Skills: Programs and Techniques
In hindsight, I tend to minimize today the efforts I have put into speaking fluently. That is a disservice to you if I do not provide a brief view of my journey. Here are some of the things I have tried over 20 to 30 years:
Types of Programs:
- Three-week intensive speech therapy program. Everyone slowed speech down to a really slow rate of speech and slowly over three weeks raised the rate of speech while learning specific skills to work with consonants, vowels, sentence structure, breath, and total awareness of the body. Specific teaching on vocal cords, vibration, articulators, etc. I did not get help until my young adulthood. The sooner, the better in my book. (Rating: must do at least once in a lifetime if you have a significant stutter.)
- One-week refresher program with an SLP and once a week after that: built on skills learned above.
- Attended self-help groups National Stuttering Association and Stuttering Foundation of America. NSA closer to my core beliefs than Stuttering Foundation. Attend at least one NSA function if you stutter.
- McGuire Program or some variant in D.C. (don’t remember and not impressed), not knocking it as I don’t even remember its name! My memory is the exposure aspect, and principles were similar to McGuire. It is listed here as this has worked for some and not for me. I had to check it out – it may have been worth the time, you never know.
- Individual SLP follow up many years later – slipping into bad speech form without realizing it and added stress.
- Apps: Speech for good app S4G (play with delayed feedback – can use with smartphone and wireless earplugs). There are many cheap apps that can be fun to play with and practice. Do get something that you can record and listen to your speech and share with SLP.
- Speak-easy devises – very costly. My impression is if you don’t have to get this, it would be better to learn skills without this device dollar for dollar.
- Toastmasters: I did Toastmasters when speaking to groups was a greater demand in my life. It is not aimed at stutterers. Get some confidence under your belt before trying this group.
- Psychotherapy: An awesome counselor who helped me work with my outlook on life integration of a healthy self despite my discomfort with stuttering and the nature of anxiety and depression as it relates to stuttering including generalized fear and anxiety. I have learned in life to use experts when I can – it just makes everything easier.
- Experimentation: There is so much out there in public presenting and singing world that you can play with your voice and experiment with to just have fun. I have used many different apps to just vary my speech practice and keep it interesting.
As you can see from the above, I tried many things and avenues over the years, and I also have had to date a successful career with many promotions in a field that is totally dependent on oral communication. That is not to say I have not had dysfluencies and still do to this day. In truth, I recently re-engaged an SLP to refresh my “in the moment awareness” of my speech and to brush up on skills due to a pending promotion.
Here are techniques labeled hard-skills (HT) and soft-skills (SS). Hard skills are direct speech applications and soft-skills adaptations to the environment, self-care, or other strategies. Some may seem silly. Of course, working with an SLP is ideal. Like golf, ideally you want to learn base skills correctly the first time, so a qualified SLP can model and provide resources. You can also find videos on the web of specific skills mentioned.
- Find a role model (SS): James Earl Jones is my role model and sometimes reach for my James Earl Jones voice which for me means abdominal breathing, deep voice, very clear enunciations, and good posture. You can hear him breathing and preparing his entrance into new phrases when he narrates the bible (audiobook on Audible). What makes him a great voice on TV is his vocal clarity and focus on each syllable and deep voice.
- Easy On-set (HT): I can hit vowel sounds at the beginning of words with too much force in my vocal cords causing a “hard attack,” and the vocal cords lock up. Practicing utilizing an h sound before the onset of the vowel, at first exaggerated and then less so, gives you the muscle memory to avoid hard attacks with vowels when you see or feel them coming you can use this skill (long or very short h sound). https://www.sltinfo.com/easy-onset/
- Soft-contact (HT): Mostly used when encountering consonants (sometimes called plosives such as /b/, /d/ and /g/ – an SLP will coach and model light articular contact to soften and be gentler with the word being pronounced. https://www.sltinfo.com/fluency-shaping/
- Pro-longed speech and slow speech (HT): Both of these fluency shaping techniques I learned in the emotionally hard three-week intensive way back when. To this day, my rate of speech and breath management can affect my communication clarity. When I rely on these today, it is not apparent that I am using prolonged speech or slow speech – though I purposefully am focusing on the slightly exaggerated enunciation of every syllable, slightly slower rate of speech, and overall better breath management. For me, speaking to quickly is a negative habit trying to get in all I have to say in one stream (why risk starting and stopping!). Biologically and psychologically it is an anxiety ticking bomb that alerts the body to danger (lack of air) and is setting up a psychological fear paradox: speaking too fast to avoid dysfluency creates an increase in tension as my oxygen is depleted. Not to mention the thought processes of trying to stay on target with the content of my thoughts. The goal here for me is not to be super monotone or dragged out – it is to speak within the range that my body can support with diaphragmatic breathing and great vocal clarity. Yes, sometimes it is just easier to speak without good vocal hygiene – the question is, can I afford to do that as a person whose stutter can vacillate greatly?
- Diaphragmatic breathing (HT): There is plenty of evidence to support that most of us breathe the wrong way! Practicing diaphragmatic breathing first and then adding sound formulation on the exhale can be an awesome way to prepare to always speak with proper support from your full vocal apparatus. http://tedxmanhattanbeach.com/speakers-2016/belisa-vranich/, https://www.sltinfo.com/ssv-breathing-exercises/ Having a speech-language pathologist model and observe your practice this would be helpful. My error is shallow breathing and over-utilization and tension in the chest and neck area. https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/articles/9445-diaphragmatic-breathing
- Meditation (SS): I am a fan of relaxing the whole body. If you can do this and incorporate diaphragmatic breathing as well – awesome. Like it or not, anxiety and tension can amplify stuttering and hurt performance (speech or otherwise). This skill cannot be used only in a crisis – it is a way of life. I recommend mindfulness-based meditations and guided meditations. This is not only good for your speech but for your general health and well-being. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DTmGtznab4: This is a 30-minute meditation that may be too hard to do initially without sleeping from John Kabat Zinn. I use an app called headspace for shorter meditation, and my apple watch has a one minute “breathe” exercise.
- One-item practice (HT): This is a little annoying – but practice one skill at a time at designated speaking opportunities. Develop the confidence that you can call on these techniques on demand.
- Exercise, nutrition, hydration, and sleep (SS): Like anything else, if you are tired, weak, sick, beat up, and otherwise not at your peak your performance may suffer at your most vulnerable point. For stutterers, that is utilizing your maximized voice. Each of these offers you an opportunity to network and speak with non-stutterers while pursuing great health. You could even throw in a hobby here – anything that gets you out and lessens stress.
- Cancellations or pull outs (HT): As I become aware of repeated words or sounds, I can choose to stop and recognize what is going on, take a cleansing breath, and then continue with the work correctly.
- I have not mentioned MHP yet (Everything technique): It is my higher power. For me, it is spiritual. I give to my God what is his to handle, and I do everything I can to handle what is my responsibility. There are things and events that we do not control – some of which may throw our speech for a loop. That is okay – my identity, and my reality is not defined solely by my speech (Second Pillar). If you do not have a higher power get one (Only kidding, sort of). Seriously if you have a faith use your faith it to support your journey – if you don’t ignore this paragraph! If you do not consider a mantra to re-enforce your daily positive approach to every speaking engagement.
- Good posture! This one almost slipped past me. It not only allows you to sue your full diaphragmatic breathing skills; it can also boost confidence. I was never a fan of “fake it to you make it,” but let me give you this resource: Your body may shape who you are Ted Talk by Amy Cuddy: https://www.ted.com/talks/amy_cuddy_your_body_language_shapes_who_you_are?utm_campaign=tedspread&utm_medium=referral&utm_source=tedcomshare&fbclid=IwAR19SHAZIYknBKx2FmwkKwOyiRMvyD4oQwKoLRJuRFqXJAnvUVpcRwmzzBs
- I might also add here that stuttering can be very traumatic and train our bodies to act neurologically, making fluent speech very challenging. We expect progress, not perfection! This loops back again to self-acceptance.
Check out these coping tips for people who have PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Syndrome). I firmly believe they apply to cope with a history of stuttering and future speaking engagements:
- Self-regulate your nervous system
No matter how agitated, anxious, or out of control you feel, it’s important to know that you can change your arousal system and calm yourself. Not only will it help relieve the anxiety associated with trauma, but it will also engender a greater sense of control.
Mindful breathing. If you are feeling disoriented, confused, or upset, practicing mindful breathing is a quick way to calm yourself. Simply take 60 breaths, focusing your attention on each ‘out’ breath.
Sensory input. Does a specific sight, smell or taste quickly make you feel calm? Or maybe petting an animal or listening to music works to quickly soothe you? Everyone responds to sensory input a little differently, so experiment with different quick stress relief techniques to find what works best for you.
Staying grounded. To feel in the present and more grounded, sit on a chair. Feel your feet on the ground and your back against the chair. Look around you and pick six objects that have red or blue in them. Notice how your breathing gets deeper and calmer.
Allow yourself to feel what you feel when you feel it. Acknowledge your feelings about the trauma as they arise and accept them. HelpGuide’s Emotional Intelligence Toolkit can help.
A recent article sent me down the Rabbit hole of the intersection of politics, psychiatry, and spirituality. It has laid bare for me the difficulty of how to share the spiritual path in a secular society as well as how to live the spiritual path oneself. Here is the journey:
The Martial Personality (MP) archetype was recently explored in the Psychiatric Times by Ronald W. Pies, MD.[i] Ronald’s opening statement may resonate with our shared readers:
“The great challenge of our moment is the crisis of isolation and fragmentation, the need to rebind the fabric of a society that has been torn by selfishness, cynicism, distrust, and autonomy. At some point there will have to be a new vocabulary and a restored anthropology, emphasizing love, friendship, faithfulness, solidarity, and neighborliness that pushes people toward connection rather than distrust.”1
Dr. Pies estimates this is a causal factor of societal disintegration in the US has only worsened in the past three years. He sees the MP archetype’s growing prominence—and, in some circles, acceptance as a significant driver. He even provides us a mythical creature for reference: the “Aresian Personality”—named for Ares, the Greek god of war!
Ares aside, Psychiatric diagnosis and clinical presentations often cut across several diagnostic categories that can muddy the waters of MP: “Despite substantial overlap with several conditions or disorders, I believe that a distinguishing feature of the MP is the individual’s sheer delight in causing harm, discomfort, or chaos: something akin to schadenfreude (from the German, Schaden (“damage, misfortune”) + Freude (“joy”). Though this term is usually defined as “malicious joy in the misfortunes of others,” psychologists Shensheng Wang, Scott O. Lilienfeld and Philippe Rochat have argued that “The process of dehumanization may lie at the core of Schadenfreude.”9 Indeed, I would argue that schadenfreude turns one’s fellow human beings into objects whose sole purpose is to feed one’s twisted need for pleasure, power, and control. Think, “School yard bully meets Machiavelli.” This is not a bad conceptualization of Ares, and of the MP.”
These are powerful words that loom large in both our historical consciousness and current day threats to world peace and individual suffering. Who can you identify today in your social circles, workplace, or the political stage today that exhibits these Machiavellian behaviors? Whatever we call this personality type it is definitely antithetically opposed to a healthy social contract or a spiritually lived life.
Dr. Pies wrote this article from his field of expertise and was very careful to insert language into his piece to say this is not an attack piece on Donald Trump – but a societal issue. This logic follows as we see this behavior increasing in every sphere, and its acceptance by people allows it to flourish. What this means is it does not let Donald Trump, Republicans, Democrats, you or I off the hook for supporting people who dehumanize life.
Dr. Pies though turns to Anthropology though for answers. The field of anthropology itself has a strong propensity to be hostile to religion and spirituality in all its forms despite many of its experts being “Christians hiding in plain sight.” The article does not mention spirituality’s demise and modernism’s rise at all as a potential key to an Anthropological solution despite calling for “emphasizing love, friendship, faithfulness, solidarity, and neighborliness.”
As a biased Catholic I here Pope Francis (modern day) and biblical references providing us the solution to today’s inhumanity to man:
- “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness…” Galatians 5:22
- “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another, even as I have loved you, that you also love one another.” John 13:34
- “In everything, therefore, treat people the same way you want them to treat you, for this is the Law and the Prophets.” Matthew 7:12
- “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” 37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’  38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.” Matthew 22:36 to 40
In the International Journal of Humanities and Social Science had an article called “The Crisis On Modern Day Spirituality” from a Muslim perspective:
“Humans would be more humane if spirituality is always included in intact personality, they do not separate between the world and hereafter, the material and spiritual, and the existence of equilibrium so humans could bring this world into a civilization that is humanizing a man.”[iii]
The modern-day atheist or secularist will invariably point out that both Christianity and Muslim religions are responsible for the world’s greatest divisions. At their extremes, they become vehicles of hate and persecution of non-believers. There is ample evidence to support this assertion if you do a little digging.
Let me make a distinction here that I believe anthropologist will support as well. Belief in a spiritual reality existential to our human understanding can be vastly beneficial for individuals and society. Religion run riot can definitively be a harmful tool when in the wrong human hands and distinctly non-spiritual. The test of one’s true ownership of spirituality (and organized religion) is in the thoughts and action of the believer judged against discerned and authentic higher spiritual principles.
Alcoholics Anonymous comes to mind as a small-scale test of this idea. Alcoholics Anonymous (A.A.) uses the phrase “Self-Will Run Riot” to describe the mindset of an alcoholic that his needs dictate everything without consideration for others. This could easily fit into the Martial Personality! A.A. is a grounded example of a spiritual program that is a self-help group grounded in spiritual steps. They go to great lengths to use the phrase like God of your understanding, Higher Power, or Power Greater than ourselves to ensure the program is free of religious affiliation and available to all who are suffering from alcoholism. And yet their program is distinctly a spiritual program. The members that truly take the deep dive into the 12 steps in thought and action are most likely to recover and lead happier, and richer lives filled with purpose and meaning.
Let us return here though to the macro problem faced in our westernized secular society today. Most Americans recognize a decline in basic human values and in anger are pointing rage at others for societies major issues. A neighbor of mine from Cuba, in accented English, once lamented they need to build a church on every corner, not for me, not for me, but for these kids these days! He may have had a few expletives as well. In other words, his lament was kids these days lack a moral compass. Nowhere in our conversation was our moral failings or what our spiritual response should have been to the miscreants who spray painted my fence twenty years ago! At that time, I was in a good spiritual place and had l kept a can of paint in case of repeat and was calmly painting the fence. I believe this calm response angered my neighbor even more! We were entitled to our rage and retribution!
A spray-painted fence is unimportant. Job security, access to health care, slander, violence, hatred, meanness, greed, and countless other vices (think seven deadly sins) grip our families and society today despite or perhaps even contributed by our nation’s wealth of resources and desire to maintain or add to our perceived elevated status globally.
Our current president thrives on “Make American Great Again” with a form of nationalism that is fueled by hate, fear, and division. Many of his followers staunchly support his views with a religiosity that leaves no room for objective discussion. It is difficult to engage healing the rift as most Americans are so entrenched in their political identity (red or blue) that genuine reflection and authentic soul searching is beyond their grasp – top threatening their very existence. Our nation has been at war with some nation or nations 93% of the time that our nation has been in existence.
There must come the point where we have to reconcile as a nation our spiritual fabric versus our internal and external relations. How can we as a nation support “emphasizing love, friendship, faithfulness, solidarity, and neighborliness” to each other and to the world community? How can we use our leadership position in the world to change the way the world is supporting dehumanization today?
If we have Martial Personalities in power, it is because we support what that means as a nation. We must face the hypocrisy of our nations dialectical positions when they are presented to us and demand realignment both domestically and internationally.
An article on societal disintegration that omits any reference to spirituality is a glaring sign of how far we are from spirituality as a society. Our original monetary proclamation “Out of Many One” and its successor “In God We trust” affirms our nation was born a spiritual nation. Eisenhower said the slogan on the dollar affirms “the transcendence of religious faith in America’s heritage and future; in this way we shall constantly strengthen those spiritual weapons which forever will be our country’s most powerful resource in peace and war.”
Our society needs spiritual warriors now more than ever. Not the preaching type with the megaphone. No, spiritual warriors in every stratum of society that live and model spiritual principles in every walk of life – educators, janitors, senators, lawyers, plumbers, artisans, nurses, bus drivers, sportsmen, clergy, accountants, bankers, policymakers, media, farmers, traders, retailers, CEOs, and all the other fields of labor. Pontification is not the answer. Living and seeking spiritual perfection is our ultimate calling as individuals and as a nation.
The rubber hits the road when sacrifices are called for to address global issues of poverty, global warming, immigration, violence, and growing scarcity of resources. Our nation’s elite and our people, in general, do not want to cede the economic advantages that we hold today globally. We fear our high moral road will place us at a severe disadvantage to other world powers that will not follow the same spiritual path.
Our politicians are acutely aware that voters support ideas but not necessarily sacrifices to achieve these ideas. They need to see that in their communities, in their inbox, and at the ballot box to give them the courage to promote real change. As long as we are wedded to money (and what it buys) and political ideology before principles, we will be adrift in misery and turmoil.
“No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.” Matthew 6:24
Oddly many readers and friends will agree with me on these spiritual points and the meaning of life. Actualizing and living up to these standards is a daunting task moment to moment. Who is your master today? What motivates your behavior every day? Are you on autopilot or do you consciously consider your thoughts and actions as they relate to a higher spiritual principle than your self-gratification?
For example, would I pay 3.99 for a coffee from a brand that only pays living wages throughout its distribution chain including the labors on the front line or chooses the 2.99-dollar coffee brand whose profit margin is driven by cheap labor and exploitation of children and underdeveloped nations? Can I even afford to buy fair labor products if I supported only fair wage products? Probably not. I would probably have to purchase less and pay more if I truly support fair wages and truly do not support child exploitation and world poverty. At least in the short term. In the long term if everyone shopped this way supply and demand chains would force policymakers and corporations to adjust their economic models that put profit over people.
Our products and markets count on lack of transparency. If you knew the shirt you were buying for $27 was capitalizing on child labor or paying its workers below poverty wages would you still support that brand? I am afraid we do this every day. In fact, in our business circles, there is great pride in widening the profit margin by deflating wages, increasing working hours, suppressing benefits, and even increasing risk of negative outcomes (think health and safety in health care, environmental contamination, or food chain safety).
Unless we demand products and services that are built on and produced by ethical companies that support human dignity, we are individually and collectively partly responsible for dehumanizing conditions all over the world including in our very own backyard. Here are some examples of initiatives to support this idea:
Imagine trying to sell these points in a political campaign – the masses eyes will glaze, and your opponents will marginalize your ideas as socialist, naively idealistic, and perhaps even anti-American and evil. And rightly so. It is not a message that can be sold – it must be lived by many through devotion and practice of genuine spiritual principles on an individual level to inform macro level economics and political ideologies. What is your 401 K had a fund that invested in only labor-friendly stocks and provided a return of 9% but a sister fund making the same widgets returned 12% without fair labor practices – which fund would you pick? Do you even know what your investments support worldwide?
What do you choose today: “to feed one’s twisted need for pleasure, power, and control” or to feed a society based on “emphasizing love, friendship, faithfulness, solidarity, and neighborliness?”
I argue we do not have a Trump problem or even a Martial Personality Disorder problem – but a societal problem of spiritual poverty (not necessarily religious orientation). This poverty makes us vulnerable to permit passively behaviors and actions that we would not be able to stand for if we were intimately connected with our innate spiritual cores known by many different names. Anthropologically, philosophically, psychiatrically or sociologically you do not have to look far to see that our nation is suffering from a deficit of morality and spiritual groundedness – with the latter including many people with firm religious affiliations. Religious affiliation does not assure spiritual groundedness.
Spiritual transcendence takes patience, faith, love, and action. And even then we have not assured anything – and yet I say this is the path to pursue true happiness and peace. I myself am high maintenance and struggle with this pursuit daily. I envy those believers who seem to just float on a cloud of belief, at least externally. Even my envy is counter to my spiritual desire of acceptance of divine providence.
My faith challenges me to accept my own faults and the faults of others while not becoming complacent with what is and to seek what should be individually and collectively with my fellow man within my sphere of influence. Clearly, most of us cannot individually change our nations political climate, leaders, or worldwide positions. Nor can we individually change other people’s actions, especially those on the MP continuum! We can however collectively moment by moment change our immediate environments and relationships with everyone we meet – which in turn can cascade into changes that appear outside of our sphere of influence.