April 1, 2017
Today I find myself in control of my destiny. My will and determination is paramount and the world is at my disposal. If any frustration arises in me at their denseness, I recognize that not all can be blessed with the wisdom that I have attained and patience is the rule of the moment when faced with brothers who remain obstinate to my will and my ideas. I am kind in all my ways, compassionate when called to be, selfless in all my actions, and next to my fellow-man, as perfected in spiritual attainment as near perfection any human may achieve. I need not pretend to enunciate how I have achieved this elevation, for to do so, would be contrary to my deep seated humility. Suffice it to say, I have arrived at my pre-destined place, at one with God’s will, forgiven and renewed in the spirit, never to stray again on the path of un-holiness. And this I do of my own free will and sheer determination as gifted to me by grace of God.
“In all ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”[i]
Today is April 1, 2017, by some it is called a national holiday for all atheist. I do not begrudge atheist or humanists that are able without the aid of a higher power to live a life as close to moral perfection as humanely possible. I am a humanist by nature, a philosopher by spirit, and an amateur theologian by self-appointment. That is not enough for me to live the life that I believe mankind is destined to pursue. Left to my own devices and self-deception I will fail to my own subliminal definition of self that although not as grandiose as the first paragraph, nonetheless is elevated above the reality of my actions and in defiance of my inherited and self-created limitations. The chasm between the two will create a separation between me and my fellow man, between me and my God, that ultimately will bring chaos and failure to fruition if left to my own devises.
In earnest I am speaking about the dynamism of Providence versus Free Will. We are powerless in the face of forces of nature, manmade circumstances beyond our control, and the limitations within our genetics and psychological make up that provide us certain strengths and limitations. For us believer’s, we are also aware of a certain sense of pre-determination, which ultimately if some outcome is God’s will it will be done. In the face of Providence and Powerlessness that is undeniably present in the human condition it could be easy to lose all hope and drive to pursue individual and collective action to fulfill a calling or life purpose. When confronted with suffering on so many existential levels and deep rooted soul felt pain, it is easy to abandon Providence or Free Will or both.
The reality is today, April 1, 2017, I find myself in doing everything in my power to do God’s will, not mine. My will and determination is important but only if it is informed and aligned with God’s will. Patience is the rule of the moment when faced with brothers who remain obstinate to my will and my ideas while allowing for the possibility and in many cases the likelihood, that it is my own obstinacy that creates frustration and disappointment. I strive to be kind in all my ways, compassionate when called to be, and selfless in all my actions – but I am far from spiritual attainment and perfection. Pride and humility are a constant dance in my head that color my actions in shades of hue that cannot be defined with any self-assurance of accuracy.
In the face of adversity we are called to make informed decisions and act on these decisions with a ferocity and commitment commensurate with the challenge before us. What challenges are you facing today? What is God’s will for you with this challenge? What is your decision? What actions do you have to take today? Who can help you validate your thinking and your plan are in-line with your reality or with God’s intentions?
If you are facing a challenge today, may you find the help you need, the resources at hand, a decision to act in accordance with your destiny, and find serenity in your life:
[i] Proverbs 3:6