If only we could be an Island onto ourselves the realities of our personal, financial, and socio-political situation would be but just a minor annoyance no greater than an industrious fly begging for our attention. We could be lost in the solitude of spirituality – one with God in a romantic monastery living a simple life – provided physical and spiritual sustenance by God’s providence. Unless called to this lifestyle with irrefutable thunderous revelations – for most of us this would be benign spiritual selfishness, perhaps malignant if at the expense of some greater calling that we have ignored.
That luxury is not afforded to ordinary man – and I have an intuition that the solitude and serenity comes at a greater price than most of us are willing to pay. For most of us, spirituality and oneness with God comes from how we deal with others. In a word, love for our fellow man. And even this is easily corruptible if we fall prey to self-sanctification by our self-sacrifice for others. How saintly am I today? Shall I give everything I have for the other?
“Heroism in this sacrifice is measured by madness: it is all the greater when it is offered for a more trivial motive.” Pg. 15
It is easier to be heroic when it is romantic to do so; the reward is great, or simply the accomplishment self-affirming. There is a place for this heroism. It still has a measure of honor and not to be substituted for cowardice or simple indifference in the face of another’s adversity.
The spiritually heroic abandon themselves to the “economy of Divine Providence.” What the hell is Divine Providence?
“I must let faith elevate, heal, and transform the light of my mind. If he is merciful, and if my freedom is a gift of His mercy, I must show my trust in his mercy by making use of my free will. I most let hope and charity purify and strengthen my human liberty and raise me to the glorious autonomy of a son of God.” Pg. 16
This is where heroic actions get very tedious. They may not be well received, acknowledged or noticed. Worse yet they may be noticed and denounced and attract great trouble and discontent. They act without an expectations or ownership of being the creator of the action – for the hero is simply acting on what he knows has to be done as a result of sincere contemplation and rigorous honesty with himself (or herself) and his/her God . It is a way of life that is applied to every action – big or small, and yet humbly completed without drawing attention to one self, unless called to do so.
What is not heroic? We are given so many decisions to make daily in our personal, financial, and socio-political spheres of influence. Should not our actions and voice be heard and informed by our conscience? Our actions are not heroic if we take moral short-cuts – if we fail to dive into the complexities and moral conundrums of our time, knowing that we will inevitably fall short of attaining perfection or even near perfection. How often have we fallen to the following moral short-cut:
“The immature conscience is not its own master. It is merely the delegate of the conscience of another person, or a group, or a party, or a social class, or of a nation or of a race. Therefore it does not make real moral decisions of its own; it simply parrots the decisions of others. It does not make judgements of its own, it merely “conforms” to the party line.” Pg. 27
How often have good people been led astray by powerful nation states, charismatic leaders, political party, or religious fanaticism? How holy is our current president’s actions (United States), beliefs, and policies? There is a contingent in the United States that stand by this man for their sense of self-righteousness and for perceived gains in their own economic being and sense of power. Could they really support this President of their conscience allowed them to do a truly deep dive into his behavior and his policies? I think not. In situations like this, let me quote Merton again:
“We must withdraw ourselves, to some extent, from effects that are beyond our control and be content with the good will and the work that are our expression of our inner life.” Pg. 118
This does not mean withdraw entirely or to assume without a pause that our position is the right and holy position. While we maybe sanctified in truth we are equally at risk to use our knowledge to be proud: “knowledge puffeth up” our sense of importance.
It is with humility that we most find our way. We have guidepost all around us. Thomas Merton says, “We judge the invisible reality of His Will by the visible and sometimes contemptible signs which show us where His will is found.”
There are simply too many good quotes in this book to capture in this blog. Merton goes to great depth to depict the balance between interior purity (pursuit of) and external attention. He finishes with a startling foray into the moment of our death. If it comes to us as an unwelcome stranger we have probably failed to manage the balance between interior purity and external attention. (Pg. 263)
A great primer for understanding prayer, conscience, gratitude, sincerity, humility and pursuit of being in the proximity of a holy life.