The way home

My page is dark. I have travelled deep into the forest while remaining in the company of others, working, toiling, loving. The silences between my writings are not absences of thoughts, only absences of thoughts worthy of the toil of exploration and expression.

Momentary emptiness, aloneness, silence screaming. Peace. The sentiment is I have gone as far as I can go. The path back to secular concerns is necessary as is the suffering, joys, and bewilderment that is our human condition.

Back to mundane task, simple prayers, reading the spiritual insights of others, and living in and of this world as I turn the corner towards home.


This moment will pass and may prove to be pure folly, but for right now, everything is insignificant other then doing the next right thing over and over again on the journey back home.

Perhaps that was always the principle hidden by my distance from the quietness of the forest.


I just read Pope Francis ruled against married priest in the Amazon. This decision is not what I would say is covered by “Papal Infallibility” definitions. The article below admits as much as the Catholic Church has granted exceptions in the past. If any Pope would have allowed married priest or women clergy it would be Pope Francis. He is guided though by church history, church traditions, and a serious counterweight of the conservative Wing of the Catholic Church. Pope Francis appointed Cardinal Robert Sarah as prefect of the Congregation of Divine Worship and the Discipline of Sacraments. Cardinal Robert Sarah is a strong advocate of traditional and conservative church traditions. I have read some of his works, and while I may disagree with parts of his conclusions, he hammers home the dangers of relativism.

In this instance I fear Pope Francis has out of weariness and pragmatism ruled against married priest and increased the Catholic Church’s irreverence in the world. Secular society and believers cannot accept blatant hypocrisy. If you have exceptions you cannot at the same time claim it is sacrosanct.

So what is the pragmatism? Pope Francis recognizes the church is deeply divided on this issue and has effectively pushed the controversy down the road apiece. There is also church administration obstacles like salaries and healthcare do not support a family in the Catholic Church. Than there is the prospect of further controversy should a priest marriage fall apart or other issues that plague families detract from his priesthood.

Do these outweigh priesthood shortage, the church sex abuse history, and the rate of depression and loneliness that priest suffer?

I have sidestepped the theological argument as it is too dense to capture here. Suffice it to say that by granting exceptions you undermine the position that married priest is an absolute no.

I propose a hybrid approach for now. Allow it with a glass ceiling. The higher calling is total dedication and celibacy. Leave it up to parishes and communities to find a balance?

Too clever by half: Shrewd but flawed by overthinking or excessive complexity, with a resulting tendency to be unreliable or unsuccessful.”

How often do we tread into waters beyond our expertise, consume a thimble size grain of knowledge, and proclaim with assurance what is right? Or equally as dangerous accept blindly ideology or beliefs without discernment and individual responsibility?

Locust and a scattered mind?

No one today would seriously claim that God has sent a swarm of Locust to Africa as a form of justice. In the book of Exodus it was one of 10 plagues delivered against Egypt and its pharaoh. The Israelites were enslaved and God demanded their freedom by signs.

Who symbolically speaking represent the enslaved today?

1) Third world countries with high poverty rates?

2) Indentured migrant workers?

3) People working two and three jobs and still falling in greater debt?

4) People falling into poverty due to capitalism giant market changes (whole towns decimated), medical calamity, war, famine, and other misfortune?

5) Human trafficking?

6) Child labor?

7) Unfair compensated laborers?

8) Incarcerated people for undue cause or disproportionate sentencing?

9) The homeless, uneducated, addicted, or otherwise disenfranchised?

10) Refuges or immigrants?

To the powerful of the world what signs might an angry God send to demand protect the poor, help the sick, eliminate injustice and inequality?

1) Earthquakes and Tornados?

2) Dictators and despots?

3) Great fires?

4) Floods?

5) War, brothers against brothers?

6) Martyrs – people killed for their faith? St. Valentine was beheaded. Happy Valentine’s Day! Christians, Buddhist, and Muslims are killed, tortured, and imprisoned today for their beliefs.

7) A corrupted priesthood?

8) Corrupted Governments?

9) Virus outbreaks, diseases, and deaths

10) and even Locust.

Read the paper tomorrow. We have not God’s Kingdom on earth but Dante’s Inferno!

I do not claim these evils are God sent. However, how much of our suffering is mankind driven?

Shy of God descending from the heavens, what sign would we accept today other than putting our finger into Christ wounds? Actually, symbolically we maybe doing just that by knowingly acting in a sinful manner?

Divided we stand and divided we will fall, each according to our measure of imperfection and God’s infinite mercy?

In the prism of our distorted spiritual and religious identities lies hidden the power of all healing, the answer to all suffering, and the elimination of all gluttonous desires and other human afflictions?

I do not have the answer for you regarding locust, fires, despots, wars, poverty and other forms of human suffering – and if I did it would you listen? I am afraid my answer cannot infuse your belief. It must come from your innermost hunger to transcend both the joy and the suffering of the present moment for a higher measure.

Educated by Tara Westover

It is easy for a non-Mormon to dismiss Tara Westover’s account of the deep-seated hold religious ideology can maintain over a person even when evidence mounts that all is not what it seems in her spiritual family.

01macgillis2-jumboHomeschooled in a rural community with an exceptionally religious father, a submissive mother, and mental health and family violence issues scattered throughout her bringing, it might be easy for some to “compare out” of this entrancing story.

Don’t be too quick to do so.  Whether our upbringing is Catholic, Buddhist, Muslim, Agnostic, or Athiest, we have been prepared to face life with a specific set of preconceived notions and truths baked into our world view.

What if, despite best intentions and genuine love, your family simply got it wrong?  The same principle applies to our political orientation and social mores and values.   How do our beliefs stand up outside your bubble of like-minded people?  Of course, as in must of life’s situations, it is rarely black and white.  You can almost always find enough evidence to support your viewpoints, and out of laziness, fear, or egotistical pride, choose to ignore evidence that points to the contrary, even if it is causing you or another great harm.

Education is one ticket to that litmus test.  Leave your family and community of origin and join a community of pluralistic ideologies and be exposed to knowledge centuries old.

This story assails the very ground we stand on.  Tara challenges you to “Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery.  None but ourselves can free our minds.”

This may not come without a cost and can cause considerable pain and family conflict.  The path of discovery is both beautiful and dangerous simultaneously.

This account also brings home serious lessons about mental health and family dynamics.  Tara describes her own struggles with breaking free of abuse and toxicity: “The thing about having a mental breakdown is that no matter how obvious it is that you’re having one, it is somehow not obvious to you.” Ultimately she could not carry two separate and ideological truths within her mind – that of her child’s ideological worldview as learned from her family and her confrontation with history and society outside her home town.

Her journey, at times, was painfully slow.  I wanted to scream how could you accept that hypocrisy as I sometimes want to scream now at ideological Trump supporters.  I have to pause and make sure it is not I who am insane:

“When life itself seems lunatic, who knows where madness lies?”

jokerWe do not have to be dancing down the stairs at 1165 Shakespeare Ave in the Bronx to be unmoored from reality as Todd Philip’s Joker is seen here.  If you have seen the film, though, this is a moment when the Joker is seemingly wholly free and powerful, coming into his own.

taxi 2We can become unmoored by giving up our individual identity and responsibility for the comfort of group identity (Catholic, Democrat, Athiest,taxi 1 Republican, Progressive, Conservative,  Pro-life, Pro-Choice, etc.).  One day you are only voting along a party-line, and the next day you look have given up rational dialogue.

Tara, to quote the New York Times, is but yet another young person who left home for an education, now views the family she left across an uncomprehending ideological canyon and isn’t going back.  This book is a must-read classic.

Finding home spiritually, politically, and morally is a journey complicated by our own individual experiences, externally imposed circumstances, and divergent historical forces beyond comprehension.   Getting educated may not obligate or require giving up one’s theological, philosophical, and intellectual beliefs – but it will require confrontation with inconvenient truths that do not meld well with our preconceived world view.

Somewhere in this journey mental illness or horrible wrongs may be discovered.  The path of recovery, healing, forgiveness, or other steps towards ownership of the self is a choice before us all.  We can promote it or we can ignore or hide it risking the peril that an untreated malady can become a tsunami.

My own faith and political ideology confront ideological chasms where achieving cohesiveness (despite 2000 years of religious doctrine) is elusive in man’s hands.  The devil is in the details of how to weave my faith in daily actions in a genuinely humble way.  Recognizing my religious institution is not without error, and my political ideals not immediately achievable or perhaps even misguided calls for caution when the winds of anger or impatience are in my heart.

An Athiest somewhere is looking at me with disbelief at my faith, perhaps how I may have looked at Tara’s Mormon upbringing. There are inconvenient truths that I have experienced as have Christian descendants before me have experienced that are evidence of the Catholic institution acting improperly and contrary to any semblance of divine law.  And indeed today we have both Democrats and Republicans as well as our nation making grave errors against humankind.   We must confront the insanity and not let it hide in plain sight regardless of our tribal instincts.

True freedom does not negate societal values or laws.  It does not deny divine spiritual truths.  True freedom requires openness to both a self-examination of conscience and a societal recognition of our shortcomings and will to do better.

This book can challenge your faith or strengthen it, it can ignite your political orientation or destroy it.  Perhaps it will do nothing at all except be a great read.  That is okay as well.



It is difficult to apply spiritual principles to our civic responsibilities. A common refrain from many believers is to cast off politics or ignore when the party that they support historically loses its way.

Pope Francis recently discussed teaching the faithful discernment when it comes to voting. He stated it is our responsibility to get beyond the superficial and be intellectually informed and honest. As an example he bought up Administration reform. Most of us are in this world and active in civic life and social networks. Very few have the calling of a cloistered life. What to do? Impeachment has riled our nation and our politicians and vast amount of Americans are dug in not on principals, but on party identity, self-interest, and pride.

I believe Donald Trump is bad for our nation and for our brothers and sisters internationally. I believe on this on spiritual, moral, ethical, and political grounds. I also believe he has committed impeachable actions and the Republican Party has the minimum responsibility of seeking evidence to clear him and present it to the public. Whether or not the democrats could of waited for court processes is secondary now. I am not for impeachment – I am for full disclosure to have transparency and ensure our system of democracy retains checks and balance. These are my beliefs having scoured multiple sources of many months within and outside my wheelhouse of comfortability. Other Christians have stepped up to the plate on Donald Trump. Historically Christians have stepped up on social justice issues and faced severe consequences from alienation from fellow Christians to martyrdom including death by horrible means.

Should you join my view. Absolutely not. My morning reading at Jesuits prayer inspired this post. We have a responsibility to be informed, discerning, and vocal. We must choose sides when it is uncomfortable. That is your spiritual and civic responsibility.

Doing so with humility, passion balanced with being dispassionate, and intellectual honesty is a great challenge. I leave you with the challenge to not be neutral, to get uncomfortable by getting outside your wheelhouse to be informed, and than to decide with discernment on what is right.


“We must take sides.  Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim.  Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented.  Sometimes we must interfere. When human lives are endangered, when human dignity is in jeopardy, national borders and sensitivities become irrelevant.  Wherever men and women are persecuted because of their race, religion or political views, that place must- at that moment- become the center of the universe. “

Lord, hear our prayer.  Amen.

Lord, hear our prayer.  Amen.

Elie Wiesel (1928-2016), professor, writer, Nobel peace prize winner, humanitarian, activist and Holocaust survivor


It is in my religious ethos to reject the singular pronoun They. The tentacles of ingrained passionate belief infused with only a peripheral understanding of the field of linguistics, a limited experience with challenges of accurate translations, and a high degree of contextual historical uncertainties is a recipe for potentially grave error with far reaching consequences.

We have a modern day Tower of Babel edifice before us. Stack original language of Adam and Eve, oral traditions, multiple transliterations, cultural and historical contexts, gender and identity science and human realities, and politics one upon the other for at least 2000 years and now tell me we are experts on our religious ethos with even the simplest challenge – use of one pronoun.

Genesis 11 (NIV) dependent on your view gives a mythological or historical account as follows:

“11 Now the whole world had one languagand a common speech. As people moved eastward, they found a plain in Shinar and settled there. They said to each other, “Come, let’s make bricks and bake them thoroughly.” They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortar. Then they said, “Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves; otherwise we will be scattered over the face of the whole earth.”

But the Lord came down to see the city and the tower the people were building. The Lordsaid, “If as one people speaking the same language they have begun To do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other.”

So the Lord scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city. That is why it was called Babel —because there the Lord confused the language of the whole world. From there the Lord scattered them over the face of the whole earth.

In the very foundation of Jewish and Christian scripture we have acknowledgement that we, for whatever divine purpose, are incapable of understanding each other with something as simple as language, never mind content.

Language is mutable since the original Adamic language used by Adam and Eve. There is ambiguity there as well. Dante’s literary works have broad Jewish, Islamic, and Christian influences as an example of one Christian exploring the meaning of life and death through the longest poem I have ever read. His view was language is by its nature very mutable.

There is archeology supporting a historical site in Modern day Iraq. After that I leave the rest up to your inquiry and imagination.

However, I mentioned language and real consequences. The use of the singular “he” to represent both he and she has only recently become accepted as “they” due to acknowledgement that our language fundamentally is flawed and patriarchal – representative of a primitive time that does not account for spiritual, scientific, and overall human development.

As a white, Christian male it is easy for me to avoid this reality and self-serving as well. Now, let’s take the unfathomable leap to LGBTQ issues. The Washington post link at the end below discusses an actual legal case where the court refused to use a pronoun that most accurately represents the individuals identity. There are cases pending at every level of state and federal courts impacting the rights of LGBTQ in individuals today. This case has a central character that is hard to support as the primary charge is child sexual abuse – we are apt viscerally to use an all together new pronoun not listed below. However, there are countless cases of LGBTQ issues being fought in what amounts to a cultural war on people I do not understand, on people that can confuse me. I have a hard enough time understanding my wife and daughters perspective and the use of “they,” never mind the plethora of terms that can capture gender available today:

I like to believe I am open-minded and attuned to my ignorance and lack of definitive knowledge of complex human issues as well as divine certainties. The grammarian in me knows I can barely use pronouns appropriately and can often interpose the Nominative, Objective, or Reflexive terms accidentally, never mind use of Ze or Ey.

How can I objectively define another persons Gender Identity and do I have that judgement right to begin with anyhow? Even the term for “God” lacks uniformity amongst the worlds major religions and even within singular faiths.

I am dismayed at the rigidity of our use of language and its applications when used to dehumanize others, define others, and assign them a hierarchical order in our world based on our imperfect knowledge of each other and ultimately of divine will.

Philosophically and practically oriented we prefer as human beings prefer to define with certitude our understanding of the natural and spiritual laws of our universe. Historically we have ample evidence that we have been dead wrong in matters spiritual, philosophical, sociological, and scientifically time and again.

What is it about human nature that allows our religiosity to exceed its domain of seeking divine truths with humility to assuming we are God’s will with absolute certainty?

There are absolute truths known to mankind. They are fewer than we presume. Language and LGBTQ issues are not one of these absolute truths other than “they” are human and share equally with “us” all things within our human experience. In essence “they” and “us” are “we” – one and the same, no separation or individuation other than the artificial ones we impose on each other.

This is alarming to some. You could apply the same logic to immigration issues, nationalistic and globalization conflicts, and the way we govern the world – where does it end? What, are we to have no laws or social mores?

To the contrary, in our lack of certitude we would have greater wisdom and more cautious mutable laws ever evolving as more is revealed. Our minds and hearts would be eager and ready to embrace with weighty spiritual discernment and collective conscientious matters small and large without preconceived assumptions that go untested. The knee jerk political whims of current political leaders would not be used destructively against others by manipulating the passion of specific groups.

The individual would at once hold any issue both from there own self-vested position and from the position of others, for they know, they are one and the same.

The walls between Democrat and Republican collapse through dispassionate and honest dialogue. The same between interfaith and other artificial divisions.

For the Christian reader you are called to especially embrace the other more so than those you get along with – that is no effort at all. Perhaps the true expression of Divine will is how we engage with those we do not understand, with the strangers, the refuges, the faithless, the sinners, and the reviled, untouchable ones. Yes, we still have a society where we cast out people.

Sometimes we cast them out with a simple choice of pronouns.

Perhaps a return to music and art can revitalize what we miss with words….

Pro Life versus Choose Life versus Pro Choice

The devil is in the details. The devil resides in each of these camps inciting, tempting, plotting, and relishing with great enthusiasm the ineptitude of mankind to confront the consequences of life and death decisions. Mankind has both the science and the legal authority to end life. Abortion, death penalty, and end of life care decisions tear families and communities apart as the life of one hangs in the balance.

The common lay person has had only brief casual conversations about these issues, mostly focused on current events and politics and supported by a superficial understanding of their religious affiliation and the dynamic forces and history forging the most current controversy. At best, perhaps they have been exposed to completing an advanced directive, researched at least one of these areas, delved into their religious orientation in depth, and possess a degree of cross cultural competencies.

The truth of the issue is most of us are simply incompetent to adequately make the case for a universally acceptable norm in a manner that is intellectually honest, compelling, and comprehends in scope when it comes to defining and defending basic human dignity.

This does not stop us from voting on single ticket issues, writing op ed opinions, counseling friends or even strangers, performing jury activities, or being confronted with making the decision for the life of one person. How woefully unprepared most of us are to handle this moral, social, legal, and spiritual responsibility.

In my incompetence, I am politically speaking somewhere between Pro Life and Choose Life. Catholic theology, Ethics, and Social Justice issues formulate my beliefs and positions. The reality of our human state of affairs is we are at times faced with decisions that have been created by a history of events beyond our purview leaving us with options that are poor, bad, or terrible.

This Jesuit article lays out the Catholic position on abortion: The article and other articles in that edition speak to the dignity of life as our spiritual ideal and mandate from God. The article also speaks to winning peoples hearts and discusses social policies that are advantageous to supporting families and human dignity. Changing Roe versus Wade, if that were to happen, is a woefully insufficient answer to abortion. There is much work to be done in areas of human dignity pre-pregnancy, during, and post delivery.

We now have a conservative court. Appointing Supreme Court justices is no longer a single ticket item vote. Issues of human dignity across the life spectrum before facing life and death decisions are culturally and spiritually paramount.

I am confident that in a majority of situations regarding life and death decisions public sentiment is woefully misinformed or ignorant of the details. The devil will makes this his playground and pits brother against sister, Democrat against Republican, and religious institutions against nations and many faithful believers. My calling this morning is to fight the culture of hate and division driven by passionate mostly sincere and well meaning people. Take a step back and recognize that when it comes to life and death issues we are dealing with suffering and tragedy regardless of your position. There is a history, a now, and a future – our discussion and even decisions is not the end.

I have a strong nuanced opinion on how we collectively should face human suffering and life and death decisions across the spectrum. It is somewhat spiritually informed and connected to current social realities. It is not at all practical as there is a lack of political will to dedicate resources to the dignity of life throughout life, not just at its inception or termination. Not being able to deliver a whole package, I recognize it is hard for me to mandate by law specific demands.

Yes, certain spiritual laws are absolute. As we learn in the literature classic “Les Miserables” by Victor Hugo, what we do with absolutes is another question. Despair and dreams, commonalities we all share:

The Confrontation with an Atheist

They are as sure of the absence of God as you are in God’s existence. In rare cases, the passionate atheist and fervent believer can meet the eye to eye and wrestle, often to a stalemate, thru the evidence for and against the existence of God — and part after thorough and exhausting discussion, being better human beings.

Religious affiliation is of no consequence here except as evidence for the Atheist that no religious organization has established the primacy of owning the eternal truths that they purport to possess within their separate faiths.

The confrontation can be unnerving and unsettling for both parties. Both have world views that have far-reaching consequences. However, at the core of it all, what is missing is an underlying mutual understanding of the limits of our certainty regarding humanity in general and acceptance of the subjective experiences that allow for or disavow faith.

A Jesuit writer, today on the feast of the epiphany, wrote that a friend of his is an atheist, and his atheism he presumed was primarily grounded in a belief in the primacy of reason. His friend presented a different reason. He shared that he was aware that many believers in God experienced what we Christians would describe as the desire for God “written in the human heart.” “I’ve never experienced that,” he said. “If there is a God, that seems terribly unfair and perhaps even cruel.”  Powerful question. From a Catholic perspective, we acknowledge faith is a grace given to us, not something we can create through our own merit and actions. We believe it is there for the taking for anyone who seeks a relationship with God. On an individual level, how can we explain to a morally upstanding human being, a friend perhaps, why they have not had that spiritual consolation of grace? Many atheists have, by human measures, pursued a relationship with God with persistent, genuine, and sincere efforts and come up empty. Answering them with Divine Providence or God’s mysterious ways, explanations feel insufficient. Judging our friend’s effort and character also seems wrong or Jobian.

My atheist friends, I cannot answer for the absence of a spiritual spark within your heart any more than I answer why a fervent believer can have years of spiritual aridity. I cannot answer the questions regarding human suffering and misery in any manner that will comfort the non-believer.

I can say believers struggle with some of the very same ideological and practical concerns that atheist has about our faith or our religious institution.  I can further say I do not judge your disbelief or assign you any hierarchical position on the spiritual ladder of life. I have been in the Atheist camp as have many believers.  I can say I am willing to be present with you in good times and bad facing life’s graces and suffering. Yes, even graces can be a challenge.

Our joint actions together, no matter how inconsequential our work may seem, can serve humanity in as much as we both ensure our efforts are not evilly intentioned.

6733ae34-574d-46e4-ad2f-6607affc0d56-1998-000002555b4f069aPerhaps my faith in action for the “the greater glory of God” and your work for the greater good of humanity can ignite elevating a shared vision of human social responsibil08c86120-d1ed-42e1-8d18-d430e69e0abf-1998-0000025633cd5576ity.  The litmus test will be frequent and furious. Let us face each divide with genuine compassion, action, and, when appropriate, laughter at our human folly and gross inadequacies.

On my end, I pray today for spiritual grace for anyone who requires this consolation.  I also hope that no one closes the door entirely on the possibility of a higher power and remains open to possibilities.  People often speak about God closing a door for us and opening up another.  I am not talking about that door, I am talking about doors that we close to spirituality.

doorOn what grounds or merit do I write to you on this request.  I have had personal experience opening and closing that dam door.  I have set up shop behind it and barricaded myself inside with science, literature, competition, human relationships, philosophy, sports, and other not so worldly vices.  It took me a bit of time to realize that while most of these comforts hold great value, my life is better after I unbarricaded the door and was open to a relationship with God.  Sometimes I still let the door briefly swing shut on the winds of carelessness and inattention.  It isn’t long before life reminds me how important for me, at least, is an inner spiritual life guiding my mortal days.

For some dramong us, closing that door can be life-threatening and do unbearable harm.  Ask people in recovery about the spiritual aspects of 12 step programs – they are free of religious affiliation but very dependent on an ambiguously defined higher power.    Those open to genuinely following the spiritual elements of the 12 step programs tend to have more success in both recovery and happiness overall.  You can visually see their peace and serenity as you might see and feel when visiting a Trappist monastery.    


What might your higher power look like if you began to search again and were open to the possibility of God’s existence?   Maybe nothingness, but the journey will be rewarding even if you don’t achieve a mystical experience.    

  • For the Atheist out there, perhaps in deeds and actions, we can find a little spark of spirituality.
  • For those who are looking into religious organizations, my bias is the Jesuits and the Catholic Faith.
  • For those in recovery – the journey is yours to define a higher power, define one quickly and be open to change.

At the end of the day, a discussion with an Atheist, Agnostic, or person in recovery about God is not a confrontation.  It is an opportunity for people of faith to exchange experiences and beliefs that we hold dearly and an opportunity to get to know one another more intimately regardless of challenging questions and probing accusations about our beliefs.   We need not be grand apologetic orators or defensive about inquiry – for if we cannot answer a few questions, how strong is our faith anyway?   And somethings we will never be able to answer – as a relationship and belief in anything mystical will defy our imagination and ability to achieve concurrence among mankind probably beyond my lifetime.


Employment Catasphrope

This article below was in a facebook book group called Human Reform politics. It is scary. And it is powerfully real. There are people out there that are foolish and cause their own misery when it comes to maintaining a job. There are more people out there, though by many that have lost employment by market forces beyond their control, medical crisis, or other serious misfortunes that but for the “grace of God” could happen to you or me. (Actually, if you believe in a compassionate God, what happens to your brother is happening to you, and you should give be concerned and alarmed as if it did happen to you – for it has harmed your neighbor).

There is a clear link between economic status and decline in Behavioral Health (  For those of us that are gainfully employed, we prefer to not see those who have fallen “off the radar” as readily employable and are now in the throes of an acute and prolonged mental health or substance abuse crisis.  They are no longer seen as vibrant people with valuable skills who, on another day, were just like you and me.

The health care field recognizes the importance and the influence of “social determinates” on the onset of behavioral health as well as its duration.  Therapy and medications do not provide the self-worth that comes from gainful employment, a role in society, a roof over your head, and access to our cultural life.

Some studies show evidence that involuntary job loss increases the risk for mental health decline, alcohol abuse, substance abuse, shortened life, and suicide.  It is a driver of our opioid epidemic here in the United States as well.


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Let us not be too quick to judge the unemployed or marginalized in our society.  Their suffering is our suffering.  Their fall is our fall. Despite our economy in the United States being claimed as the “best economy ever,” access to living-wage jobs and job security is threatening the vibrancy of middle-class America every day.   That fear is a wedge images (3)driving walls between us, the haves and have nots, the established and newcomers. While Pink Floyd’s “Another Brick in the Wall” has no applicability here, I hear and see this image and imagine a man in his 50’s facing an economic crisis at the hands of a mega-industry shift.  The alienation and shame, the aloneness, the summation of childhood dreams, and adult realities come crashing into my mind.  

Take a moment and recognize it is your brother on the other side of the wall.  It is you – looking into a mirror at what could be your future in the blink of an eye.        

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Unemployment as a raw number is down.  That does not help those that are in its grasp.  Underemployed is up.  Both can lead to financial devastation.  Our economies do not support work-life balance and long-term security here in the United States due in large part to our economic system that is built to distribute wealth and resources massively disadvantages the majority in favor of the few.  It simply can be better.

Happy New Year

Dear strangers;

We take much comfort in our sense of time and our utilization of time; however, we define its importance.  The journey from “birth to earth” for us is filled with time markers marking our days until our visible days are no more.  Our mortality creates a great sense of urgency and pressure to use our time well.     If you are reading this, we are entering into the year 2020 together.

New Year

We are not really strangers to each other.  We share our common humanity in all its beauty and ugliness.   We share a sense and desire for ultimate certainty regarding eternal truths or, at the very least, a sense of confidence regarding our ultimate purpose in life.  We seek to live a meaningful life amid a world that is uncompromisingly unpredictable, contradictory, and temporal.

In this temporality, I reach out to you to wish you and your neighbors a year filled with enlightenment and unity with each other.  Knowledge of what is truly important and connectedness to people close and far – warm, loving, and compassionate relationships wherever you go, may harmony and peach find you.

On a deeper level, I yearn for us to have unity with transcendent, eternal truths that bring us all closer to living a holy and sanctified life.    I wish that we each can have a glimmer of that ecstasy to nourish us and provide is strength when our physical and spiritual selves are battered by our secular life and human frailty.


Wherever you are tonight or this a.m. preparing to face a new decade, know that you are unique in a way that far exceeds your own capacity to comprehend.  You have potentiality within you to further enrich your life here and now, in the future, and dare I say for eternity?

I say this with certainty that if you choose to embrace your potentiality, to accept that you are valuable to me and to many others, and to set out each day with the idea that everyone you meet has that same intrinsic value, it is going to be a great 2020 no matter the adversities and situational inconveniences that will face you.

3 amIt is 2:43 in the morning.  Most have gone to bed or are not far from closing up celebrating the New Year.   Some say 3 a.m. is a special time where pray life is especially revealing. Whether you be awake or asleep, sober, or in some other state of consciousness, connected to God or desperately alienated, happy or sad, successful or struggling, this late-night note is one of gratitude that you are you and have the opportunity to be an even better you in 2020.

May we together, by careful and measured discipline act quietly and humbly to improve ourselves.  May we may collectively enhance the world and its beauty one relationship at a time.  One pray at a time.  One moment followed by another, patiently allowing eternal truths to guide us every day that is gifted till the earth rises up to reclaim us back into its folds.

Perhaps when our time runs out, and our body gives up its last breath – we will not find ourselves in a state of regret or unprepared for no more tomorrows.  That is what I want for you – for everyone, that when we rest our heads at night-time to sleep, that peace and harmony are within our souls in case, morning never comes.

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Goodnight neighbor in this Common Era time 2020.  


Happy New Year and Best Self Wishes

Happy New Year!

For many, an avalanche of expectation is pending ringing in the New Year.  On Wednesday evening, we will ring in a new decade together (like it or not) thanks to social media and a truly integrated global economy.  What are you anticipating for New Year’s Eve? For 2020?  Are your New Year’s Eve plans set?  Have you jotted down a few goals (resolutions) for 2020?  Take a moment and jot down the top goal for ringing in 2020 and the top three resolutions for the new year.  What might get in the way of your goals?


New Year’s resolutions are made to be broken as Mark Twain’s quote alludes above.  The great author was himself a social drinker whose alcohol usage was sometimes criticized and historically aggrandized. He did not have the resolution to quit alcohol and nor would I recommend he have the resolution to do so!  Any resolution we make should be intimately connected to our identities of who we are and what we want to be today and all the tomorrows we have left.  What about you?

Now, with your list in hand, I am going to ask you to examine two very personal relationships in your life:

  • Take a moment to reconsider your relationship with alcohol (or other mood-altering habits).
  • Take a moment to reconsider your relationship with your “best-self,” your ultimate potentiality, your sense of being in harmony with your nature, with your innermost sense of living a significant and meaningful life.

How does Alcohol fit into your New Year’s Eve plans?  How significant is it for you personally on New Year’s Eve?  How much thought have you put into what you will drink on Wednesday evening?

None of us fit the criteria for being diagnosed as an Alcoholic.  I am sure of it.  Why?  I say this because there are no diagnostic criteria for being an alcoholic[i] in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Health Disorders (DSM).   There are many definitions in the manual for alcohol use disorders ranging from mild to severe that you can reference or, better yet, see a professional if you have enough evidence in your life to indicate alcohol use may be harming you.

This relationship with alcohol is, first and foremost, very personal to you.  You are probably not one of the estimated 6.2% of the population that has evidence of an alcohol use disorder today.  Hopefully, you are not on the road to joining that group either!  It is really about what does alcohol truly means to you and how does it hurt or improve your mental, physical, emotional, social, and spiritual life?   If you are like most people, alcohol does not play a big role in your life and is not necessarily needed to have a good time or enjoy friends and holidays.  But what if you are not like most people – but you also don’t fit the stereotype fictional alcoholic diagnosis?  You may have a job, friends, and all the trappings of being a successful adult and yet, have a little voice or nudging bothering you about alcohol?

The reality is alcohol use has an outsized role in our society to deliver what is already available to us without its use.  People who do not have an alcohol use disorder or any history of negative events choose every day to not drink without any difficulty or pressure to do so.  They naturally enjoy life and the people around them without alcohol.  People with alcohol use disorders diagnosed or people self-defined as alcoholics who have achieved true recovery are also able to choose every day not to drink and enjoy life without alcohol, albeit it with a certain sense of added responsibility and weight that comes with a negative history from previous experiences.

Alcohol is a choice.  Do I want you to not drink on New Year’s Eve?  No, my wishes for you on New Year’s Eve is that your relationship with alcohol on New Year’s Eve and in 2020 is right-sized – that it does not take away from your overall well-being or those around you.  If alcohol is not harming you or anyone else and you are fun to be with after partaking in drinking – I will buy the first round metaphorically speaking!

Too often, consumption of alcohol becomes the desired end rather than the consumption of alcohol being a means to add to the desired experience or social engagement.    New Year’s Eve or any eve becomes an opportunity to drink rather than an opportunity to enjoy relationships with other people and life in general.  Drinking becomes the means to get to a certain state of emotional sensation (euphoria, social ease, unguarded, numb, unconsciousness, uncontrolled, silly, dangerous, heightened adrenaline, humorous) that provides escapism from the self.  Hopefully, this is not you.

I hope to spend New Year’s Eve with friends and family that enjoy each other for who they are with or without alcohol.  I hope and wish for everyone, including you, to ring in the New Year, aligned with your relationship with your “best self.” Alcohol may not require your attention – insert in here any other goals that will help you be your best self today and tomorrow.

What is your “best-self” for New Year’s eve and 2020?  You cannot become today what you are meant to be in ten years, but you must start today to be what you are meant to be today to achieve what is expected of you down the line.  Wherever you are on your journey, in the valley or at a peak, beauty is present. Every day on the mountainside


climbing up is the opportunity to be your best self.  The mountain tops will come and go with beautiful scenery to be cherished and remembered – but the journey is where the meaning of life is held, even the descents when we unexpectedly fall off the desired trail.

Defining your best-self involves an ideal to pursue balanced with an everyday actuality to practice today and every day.  New Year’s Eve and any resolution is simply an artificial calendar day to provide us all the time to reflect on the mountainsides, unexpected falls, and mountain tops of yesteryear with gratitude and refining our relationships with life for the next ascent.

My best self is by definition unattainable as it is defined by desiring to be one with my God and be limited to striving to lead a holy life while fulfilling the everyday mundane human responsibilities.  I am on one mountainside climbing with the tools that have been provided to me.  I know not what the mountaintop brings, whether it will be my final mountain or many more to come.  I can only climb the distance meant for me today.

Today, I have been charged with writing to you to ask that you reflect on your relmoutnainationship with alcohol and your relationship with your best self.  If you find it “wanting” in any way, make New Year’s eve a demarcation point and involve others in altering your climb up the ascent.  Involving others is a great way to strengthen relationships that have significance and meaning.  Mountain climbing should not be a solo sport.  Choose wisely!   

There is a movement afoot in society today that is exciting.  It is people choosing a lifestyle change before a lifestyle change is forced upon them.  Check out this article on Holly Whitaker:

This post is aimed at people who are open to exploring their relationship with alcohol and have perhaps not had the issues associated with clinical alcohol use disorders or layman’s alcoholism definitions.  I would be remiss to not include the Alcoholics Anonymous website where many have found a solution and where they also recommend people seek professional help as well if needed.  If you are in that situation or have a friend who is in that situation you can always attend an open A.A. meeting.  They will know the resources in your community inside and outside of A.A.  You can also go to the SAMHSA website below as well.


[i] For advanced drinkers who have already delved into your personal relationship with alcohol and self-defined yourself as “Alcoholic” this post does not challenge your definition or your solution.   This writer encourages people to explore Alcoholics Anonymous open meetings if you are unsure about where your relationship with alcohol fits on the continuum of normal drinking to desperate drinking and learn about a potential solution to myriad of life’s challenges for people who have committed themselves to abstinence.


Are you Catholic? Are you Political? Are you Sure?

Thanksgiving day many of us will have the blessing of family, friends, food, and freedom. I am grateful on a granular level for my family, my fellowship with others, and my work colleagues. On an existential level I am thankful for those that disagree with me, for my enemies known and unknown, and the adversities that have simultaneously challenged and formed my fluid identity. On a spiritual level, the overarching umbrella of everything, I am grateful for my every breath, thought, and action on this thanksgiving day.

Gratitude for me involves reflection, introspection, and expression. Thanksgiving also gives us the opportunity to pause with our families and community. People will say avoid religion and politics. I say that is rubbish nonsense! These two human institutional structures no matter how divinely inspired have fallen short of divine revelation regardless of religious and political affiliation. Our granular networks and our religious and political aspirations are a uniform validation (or condemnation) of our collective spirituality, of our reaching for the umbrella of everything (mystical revelation, spiritual transformation).

Are you Catholic or belong to any other faith? Are you sure your faith represents you or you represent your faith? The article below focused on Catholicism’s dynamic tension between liberal and conservative Catholics and confounding Papal authority. Ross Douthat identifies himself as conservative Catholic. However we spend thanksgiving today let us be humble in spirit and with political ideology, fluid in identity when we are wrong, and loving in thought and action.

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